The Heart Contents Of PeaceZ

Shattered Dreams, Disfigured Heart and Misguided Soul.

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Thu, 26 Nov 2009 15:12:00 +0000

I was reading thru facebook as usual when i read raudha 's post. I was stunned by it really. it holds so much meaning so much feeling and she aint the usual type to pour out her feelings to the public not even to ppl she knows either.

But oh how true it was when she mention the phrase how we dun see the ppl in front of us and only start to miss them when they are gone. heh I have always taken things for granted. always. about everything. and now everything came back to haunt me. Im amaze how taken back how i was.

I used to fall really really deep before down a hole that i nvr thot i cld ever climbed out from. But i was wrong... with the help of a fren who cares who constantly give me a push when i badly needed it , i got out of that hole.... And i once thot that was it. I will nvr fall deeper for i thot that was the deepest anyone cld ever drop into and survive.

I know it seems im ranting nonsense but i am not. Amazingly i am still surviving despite just realizing that i cld never have had a worst month/weeks/days/years(u name it) other than in November 2009. Worst in my lyfe. I just lost someone i truly love. Left me for she lost her feelings. Just when i had the intention of spending my whole lyfe with her and now i cld nvr look at other girls the same way. Then 2 days before the anniversary of my accident on 21st Nov 2008, i got sabotage by people.

Who cld have hated me so much tat they would slash the tires of my bike? Even if it was a prank at the very least they cld just let out the air. But no they just have to let me spend $140 to tow and buy new tires. and also cost me lots of effort along with Ahmad and Kenneth to push at least 2km or more to the nearest petrol station to try pumping the tires out before we found out it was slash. The bike weights a 99kg+ for good ness sake.

Then TP today on 26 November and with all this feelings haywire and upset, i knew i wasnt both emotionally and physically ready for it n there goes my $200.

This week i specially took leave a month ago just to spend time with you only to realise this week that there is no more you and me just my friend and i.

Ahh how worst could it be?.But i admit the worst of it all is losing you.
I dun blame you nor do i hate you for i realise that its my fault.
Had i made the effort of taking better care of you,
None of these would have happen.
I swear that im going to improve myself.
Reorganize myself and prove to you that I am the one
Just like you are the one for me.
I dun have the courage to tell my family about losing you.
Im staying strong for you for im sure someday ull be back even if its not now.
NO ONE can ever be compared to you.
I have learnt too much from you.
I learnt things i swear i cld nvr have learnt on my own.
I learnt to realise who i am and what im fighting for
And who im living for.
It was HIM who brought us once together
And someday should fate permits, Its gona be HIM who's gona bring us back together.

PS: i have always wondered what would happen if i suddenly disappear?

I'll gladly trade everything to have u back

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Tue, 17 Nov 2009 05:41:00 +0000

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 06:41:00 +0000

Remember this ?

Ah i still remember the day
U started to plant the seed in me
After ages of me trying to plant mine to urs
slowly and steadily i waited...

everyday i tried to water the seed in you
trying to make it grow
and it did...
very...very slowly
and it started to bloom....

And it was then that u...
finally wanted to plant the seed in me...
And surprisingly...
It grew very fast...
So fast that its both the same height now...

This seed has grown into a fine plant
Bearing proper fruits of knowledge around us...
And i shall forever water this plant...
And cared for promising never...to let it die
Or ever wither...
because this is the plant we called "trust"

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You are like a glass
So Fragile
So Vulnerable
Yet so strong.

You were,
Cracked hard with first hit,
And while i was painting the crack over,
You were HIT again.
Broken you were yet still in shape,
However,
I believe that one more hit,
Will cause u to shatter.

This time after the 2nd hit,
I glued you and painted you over.
To hide ur cracks,
And yes you stood strong....

But,
A Reminder came,
And so you were shattered...
I was in TEARS,
helplessly watching you....

But,
I Will Fix you someday.
And This is MY promise to you.

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Memories... you are and will always be my one and only....

Speechless.

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Mon, 16 Nov 2009 02:16:00 +0000

Its been ahwhile, not really, its been a very long time since i came here. i once thot that i have finally found the reason to never come back here to open up my heart. But was i so wrong.

I finally lost my one true love and also the only one i would open up my heart to. The one i would really die for and now its totally gone. The pain is really overwhelming. I am deem totally helpless. Why is this happening to me? What have i done to deserve this pain?

Losing you is like losing every part of me. I dun wish to live on anymore... I have lost my only motivation my only reason of moving on.

After god knows how many years, finally tears flow down my eyes like there is no tml. A call from ahmad was all it took for myself to breakdown. Though sadly i cldnt talk thru the phone.

Ya Allah mengapa harus hamba mu yang lemah ini rase kepahitan dah kepedihan ini semua. Setelah 2 1/2 tahun, haruskan ia hilang begitu saje? Where is all the memories, the tears and joy and all of those things we did together? Does this means nothing to you?

My dream of marrying you and living together for the rest of my lyfe is all shattered.. i doubt after this ill be able to have faith in love anymore... Maybe i shd just build a wall around me and hide and cower in there and die alone for thats all i am... ALONE. I kinda left my frens for you coz you were the impt one but i guess i was wrong.

Im just speechless.

The full version ( i call it Love, Tears, Part and Fears of a family)

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 27 Jul 2008 18:48:00 +0000

This is the full version to the gift for the exco made by ain and me.
This is also for those that did not get the chance to read it.
Enjoy it yeah. Its not perfect but plz do tell if u like /love it.
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Years in exco proved beneficial
Brothers were made, Sisters were introduced
Leaders were mould,Followers could lead
The time has come we lead our own lyfes.

A family was made after a fateful separation
A legacy lives on though the previous were not forgotten
New dramas came up over-riding the old one.
New friendship bonded with old ones.

Its sad to leave but fate decides
Its time to move on though the heart says no
Passing on is hard but its time to leave
Being apart is painful but the bond stays truthful

Losing people is part and parcel of life
Gaining others is advantages of losing one.
Sorry may seem the hardest word
But lets apologize before it was ever too late.

With this poetry came my tears
A pain to leave but never to stay.
A heart so painful yet so truthful
A family so bonded but yet to be parted.

Its a pain to leave my family
But its much more painful to stay
and not be a part of it
I guess its time for me to move on

Sorry may seem the hardest word
But I'm sorry for those hurtful things i did
I'm sorry too for being bad at tymes
And also when i made a hurtful decision for your better-ness.
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On May 2007, a new family was made
With the old one just parted
A new legacy has just started
An untold legend is yet to unfold

Din was made to mainly lead
With Yus and Faan as his sidekicks
Nani and Syak was to record our minutes
With Mahirah becoming our chetti

Wan and Yan was to clean mls
Wak and Azlin was to care for everyone
Su and Zureen was to cultivate some cultures
Ain and Rohani was to relate to public

14 of us were to fight our fears
Each mainly new to its desires
With all the coming challenges
We hold our heads up high and say "Mls coming through"

Bowling being the first fight
Breaking friendship making families
The real side of people were seen
All the hidden leadership were shown

A successful yet failure event to be truthful
A start to an effort to save cost
Ending up to be a lost instead
However with a lost came our famous name

However bad that may be,
Our names at last were being known
From North to south, East to west
Finally known was our name to others.

YIC was another start of a great bond
Recognising each other's talents and weaknesses
Repenting together in hopes of acceptance
Fighting together to obtain forgiveness

Iftar was a major success
Lead by a potential leader
With people coming from afar
Recognising us like we were old frens

Raya 07 was full of memories
Where we share our joys
And cried for forgiveness
It was time to part with an old family

Muzikarama came with which we fought
With all our might with money and all
Being transparent was a lesson learnt by many
To hold the bond between us family.

We don't exist as one but actually as many
With one we are actually nothing
With everyone we are warriors
Fighting together to win this war

I-kem came with many obstacles
And yet, we hold and fight with tears
Friendship were broken and yet remade.
Truth were known with past miseries

AGM 08 has finally come.
Its time to meet and say goodbye
Being replace with others so new
Its time to write another legacy

A final chapter to an old series
With it comes a new story
Full of action, full of tears
So for now we shall close the covers
To an old book we name SPMLS.

A wise leader once told us.
Blessings of God comes from the Unity of its people.
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Family

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 13 Apr 2008 18:29:00 +0000

Brothers in Arms.
Sisters in Action

Memories Will last forever.

Its me.
It has always been me.
Im impressed like really.
By how a small heart can handle
Big and dangerous stuff.

I see things,
I feel things,
I hear things,
and i know things.

Thats my nature.
Not that i want to,
its just i was forced to.
Frankly said,
I do not wish to know

Sometimess,im sorry
I just had to ask
For reason known
The sadness in any of you.

And as you know
I dun force you to tell
And neither do i prod you till you tell
my sentence is always the same
If you dun wish to tell,its okae.

I LOVE YOU ALL

My heart felt true content.

You dun have to tell me the problem,
I just need you to tell me your feelings.
I believe some of you remember this sentences.
Its always repetitive.

Its my way.
Its what makes me, me.
I love you all
I really do

Though i have to sacrifise
I always remain neutral.
I do not hate nor do i favour people.
Except certain ones that
unfortunately hates/dislike me.

Depression is a part of me.
It has always been in me.
Coz i know someday,
ill be forgotten as always.

I am just a passer-by
a moment in most of your lives.
Asking to be remembered is too much
but believe me, i am a small part in all of you.

Someday my frens,brothers and sisters.
I request you of one thing.
To sit and reminisce when ur in trouble,
the times we spend,
the people who will look after you
And those that never forgets you.

Think abt the times when ur in trouble,
The people around you,
Those that is willing to sacrifise time for you.
Those who acted like they hate you, but loved u instead.
As a brother or a sister.

Though people change,
Their memories do not.
Though feelings disappear
Their past do not.

So whenever u felt like no one cares
or if ur old frens forgets you,
Think again.
For if they do,
They would have never created a passing memory.

Sometimes you people say im blunt
Or even too sharpBut im not.
Its just the way i am
You guys want me to accept the way you are
And i did
I hope you people accept me the way i am.

Im sorry for being blunt OR sharp.
Its just me when im serious.
Not when im angry.
When i am angry,my words
will just shut people up.

There is a reason behind everything i do,
Its not just a blunt decision
But mostly an appropriate one
Or at least a reasonable one.

When i tegur some of you,
Please understand,
Some lines are not meant to be crossed
So i have to pull u back.

Its not that i am angry but,
I have to analyze the situation.
And do the appropriate decision.

Forgive me for i have done many wrongs.
Forgive me if i had step beyond your line
Forgive me if my caring crossed your personal space.

Will you accept me the way i am?

My Family, Hear My Heart's True Feelings

My brothers and sisters,
The time for me to stay here is not long
Its about time when the school says go
And my reality appears.

To face reality, is painful
For i do not wish to leave you all
My heart says no
But the time says go.

To Zureen,
You are someone i respect.
A brother i can call
amazingly ur much better than i thought u would be
Someone with the capability to go far.
But you have to stop your laziness
More of initiative is needed for success
I see a good future in you

To Rohani,
Friendliness without boundary is dangerous
Know how to filter between good and bad
Some people just wish for attention
While others needed your listening ear.
Sometimes you have to pour urself out too
Find the right people i hope
For sometimes filling up too much
May just cause you to burst.

To Syakirah,
I am amaze by your leadership
To lead and to push
However your tone you have to watch
Because sometimes being fierce and strict
Is two different things
Strict is good but being fierce,wud stop people
From really wanting to listen
Sometimes a nicer approach is better.
But i have faith that you will go far.

To Ridzwan,
You are always a brother to me.
Though u are a bad tempered person
I know u are a kind hearted person
You r willing to go far for someone
You regarded as a family
But sometimes its good to forgive and forget than
To actually be angry.
Everything is just a part and parcel of lyfe.
I saw ur potential the first time i saw you
Thats why i fight for you at times.
Please dun disappoint me ya

To Sufyan,
You and me always click
We are brothers by nature.
Our interest are what binds us together
Its always easy for us to get along yes?
We fight together, we fall together.
You are someone who has big dream
A reality check kind of dream
I believe if u continue working hard,
you will get there someday.
Continue my brother,Fight for justice!
But beware of ur surroundings,
for some may just be shallow.
And Credibility is always better than just plain loyalty

To Ahmad Abdillah,
You are a playful person
Although i respect that u know how to do your work
And that you are not afraid to ask when you are in doubt
But sometimes all it takes is faith and courage
For you already have the skill
And i see you sometimes lack the initiative
But i have faith in your potential to lead
In terms of religion, you are well equip
And for others, you are prepared to learn
This kind of attitide will bring you far as well.
Work hard and continue asking but push when u have to.

To Mahirah,
Sometimes i see your screw is loose.
Really loose haha.
But im impress that u held well
You held well to my constant attack of craziness
And you no longer get hurt or break down by it
Yet nowadays you can slowly counter those.
But frankly i meant well, those are actually meant
for you to have faith,courage to hold yourself
By doing this you build yourself a shield.
A shield that you r proud of to protect and to attack
I believe that now u have great faith in urself to lead
And you are no longer anti-social or lonely
Its just you have yet to learn to use the power of frens hehe.
Sometimes the power in us comes from friendship that we earn.

To Azlin,
One such example of power from friendship is what drives you
You live not just for yourself but for others as well
You work with the drive to help not to succeed.
You are willing to sacrifise your time and energy just so people
Can benefit and strive.
But do listen to my advice sometimes we have to be selfish
Because by being a little more selfish, we are actually
Showing that we love ourselves just as much as we love others
Your body and your soul needs your care just as much as others that needs you around.
You are a jovial and happy go lucky girl
But deep inside, who knows? haha
Continue helping others girl but take care of yourself kae?

To Suhailah,
I hate green.
Haha just kidding.
You are one hell of a always smilling and happy girl.
But sometimes i see you put more effort in your interest heh
Do remember, studies is also more important.
So yep do maintain a suitable level of importance to everything
Including YOURSELF.
Sometimes like i said above, being selfish is important.
Its to prove that you love urself just as much as others.
You are like a real family to me having work two yrs with you
We have experience falling, getting up, happiness and also sadness.
But all of this will benefit us in the future insya allah.
Dun forget sister, im here always shd u need a spillover.

To Nuraini Jasni,
A self declared sister of mine haha.
But nevertheless i treat you like one and no i have nvr forgotten you.
If u remember well, im always around you.
And i have NVR ignored you.
Despite being busy or not when i see you, i will always say hi.
Or at least i will always tegur or disturb you to prove i still care for you
I dun know what is happening between us. But do take note i have nvr gone away,
Im still here acknowledging you as my family and wishing you come back
For we people actually still cares for you.
We wish to talk wif you but its just harder now
with you rarely coming to us like you used to.
Please dun get me wrong, We still talk abt you and where you have gone.
Sometimes we wonder why you dun come to us when u have problems anymore
So when u really do have a problems dun assume we dun care, its more
of that we dun actually know.Do remember those times, even though i was in class,
i was willing to come.Those time when you were down,
i stayed outside till late to ensure ur home
Im recalling because i miss those times we were a family.

To Farhan,
Haha A close brother of mine ever since god knows when
Haha Always with his crazy ideas but humble with his knowledge
I respect your approach wif people.
We fought hard together ever since the start of 35th
For the pressure was more of us than for din.
Haha we are to support din shd he fall
But due to his large size i dun think we can handle him hehe
But no, with the problems we faced, we kind of held well.
We fought hard and we learn well.
I believe you are now ready to move on to bigger things
To lead well and to serve well.
You are the next generation and i shall help you the best i cld
As long as im here still, i shall help in anyway i can.
Brothers for lyfe.

To Din,
You and your kedegilan.
Haha yet you still strive hard and sacrifise a lot to help others
Though whatever u are doing are actually behind takbir
People cant actually see and appreciate those that you did
But i see and i appreciate.
However sometimes, you dun have to do everything
You just need to learn to share the job and share stuff.
You dun have to actually help everyone,
just those that actually needs you.
Its not selfish, its just doing the right thing.
Helping everyone is not the correct way.
Sometimes people have to learn to stand up for themselves.
And your words. Sometimes they hurt others.
Without your knowledge.For me its my tone. but for you its your words.
Think properly abt others before we speak ya.
I wish you well for ur future endeavour
Though i still hate you for leaving my FYP group!

To My other half,
You are my everything
Though we quarrel at times
I ensure we are okae at others.
Without you im nothing
Sorry if sometimes i just break down
There is no one else i can do that with.
Just with you. I am able to share just like you did to me.
Sometimes its just my nature to be upset if u accidentally forget me
For it shows i remember you hehe.
But do know that whatever i do, its with you in my mind.
And for exco wise im proud of you
Frankly said, i have no say in letting you join the exco.
Its the choice of 34th exco to put you in.
They wun let me choose nor will they let me interview you,
But im happy they made the right choice putting you in.
And i believe you learn well over the past yr.
You are now able to stand on your feet to prove yourself.
However sometimes decision needs to be made on ur own.
Sometimes i can advice but the decision lies on u.
But i have faith that you are much more capable than you think you are.
Thanks for everything.

My pain

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 13 Apr 2008 18:07:00 +0000

I have been rather quiet
Rather lonely
Yet I am there for everyone.

Though i am rather lonely
There's you beside me
And there's me with you.

Things have been rather....
out-of-hand
My mind's tired.

I sometimes feel that
I just cant take this anymore
But i endure With you,
My source of hope.

The reason i dun blog
is obvious,
I just cant bring myself
to let it out

Ill cry soon enough
Someday, sometime
And i foresee that
It is very near.

Even now my heart feels
the pain developing
slowly yet steadily

The reason you ask?
It has always been there.
As i have always been here.

I have been rather quiet about things
Rather further than some of you
I no longer ask about problems

And i no longer lend an ear.
Now thats my mistake.
For that im drifting apart.
Im tearing apart.

I thought with just you,
I could live.
and i did.
But not for long.

With just you,
I lost my respect,
My credibility,
My self in short.

Things i used to do,
Things i did
And things i can do,
I rarely do.

Do you realise the change?

A letter?

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Wed, 30 Jan 2008 13:14:00 +0000

Aww crap...

I received my NS enlistment letter a couple of days ago...
So yep i had to defer again (woohoo!!)
And so i tried today...

Bah!
guess what?
Haha after writing in my deferred date... The system said that i din need to defer!!!
And my enlisting is already set to AFTER that date (oct 2008--> my unofficial grad date)

BOOHOO! haha but oh well look on the bright side of lyfe!
I am able to spend december ( my probably enlisting date) till april in ns while my *her is still studying :p

Haha i made it sound as if its a good thing but its NOT! haha
Oh well look likes my days are numbered!

The House!

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Tue, 29 Jan 2008 17:03:00 +0000

Wee! One paper down! one paper to go!

Haha my first paper was fine actually except for occasional blank moments heh.
Hmm my first paper was actually hmm Network management.

Network network network... been seeing a lot of this word lately...
From network marketing to networking to wireless network to now network management.
And guess what everything is DIFFERENT! haha.

Oh well today i took a timeout with *her heh. Went to vivo after her papers (which she said was quite hard!) hah
Guess what we did ? hah we watch a movie!
We watch the movie "The House"

I really recommend this movie to you people heh. Scary really really scary. Its not like those regular-overated not-so-scary movie.

I would have shared the story line for you people but i really don't want to spoil it heh.
Go watch it! its a thumbs up hehe.
Seriously even i was scared heh.
The sound effects were great also sey.

So yep after that just had a stroll before going back hee.

Oh btw i realise that the bookshop at vivo... the one nearest to GV... Has ALOT of good books.
I went to the comic sections and saw dozens of unseen comics before... Woo! nice nice hee.

Hello mellow Turn my blue pants Yellow!

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Mon, 28 Jan 2008 16:39:00 +0000

Haha helo peeps.
Its been ahwhile eh?
Sorry i have been quite lazy to update recently because i din find a real purpose in blogs.
However i did realise there are many aspects to blogs other than just a normal update of our lives.
Don't believe? haha someday i am going to share it with you people.

However for now, let me just lie low and continue doing some research to it.
You know, ever since i have been told about business ideas and such,
I found out that business is very wide.
Its not just about retailing or selling things...
Anything that can make you money is called making a business heh (DUH!)

So what is it that we are really aiming in lyfe?
Besides being accepted by Allah s.w.t ?
Our lives is actually short and yep i realise that its not too early to start now.

Sometimes we just tend to procrastinate our doings, our plans, our future...
But do you know that if u start to at least plan now? You can make your future a better place?

I know some of you must be thinking...
"OH COME ON! we are only *fill in ur age* What can we do at this age?"

Well the answer is... many things...
We always think that during our youth years are those years we spend to enjoy lyfe.
Well we can always "enjoy" our lyfe and yet even benefit from it.

How? How can we do it... Hehe
Go Find out yourself! haha.

Who knows if i feel like it , i might just write on it the next time hehe

Oh btw if anyone has plans maybe to run a small business or whatever, you can always approach me or "us" if you need web hosting and design :) We might be able to work out a deal.

Lyfe's all about you.

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Tue, 01 Jan 2008 18:26:00 +0000

The time has come
When its time to say
Goodbye to you...
And hello to new.

What i meant...
is something in depth
That i shall truly explain...

A year has past
When i truly dread
Viewing the future
And awaiting fear

I was met
With a pain so deep
That i fall apart

Though truly bleed
I stayed alive
For something has kept
Me sane Till now

And so it happen
That i went after
For 7 months past
Till then you came

You came to realise
For wat was true
And you came to realise
That im for you.

In that following year
I wait for you
For 2 months almost past
I thot i lose you.

I was wrong
Oh i really was
For fate came
And Talk to you

The day finally came
That you finally said yes
And my wait was finally futile
Coz my lyfe has finally changed

A month later
I passed my license
Though i lied to you
You still saw thru me

A month later
A New Wife came
While people was happily ending Kem ilusi
I was sadly making my way home to choose my wife

What wife i was talking about?
Heh for all of you
Here is the name
ITs called Kapchai!

A month later my birthday came
It came wif joy
And pride thereafter
Coz i was celebrating
Wif No one BUT you!

Months has passed
And im still happy
Till The nations birthday
It was yours too.

I hope you like it
I hope u fancied it
Coz thats not only it
And i promise there is more to come

Till now we last
Im still so happy
To finally have met
Someone so hippie

To you i shall say
What i wanted to say
2007 has past
But the memories will last.

2007 has yet
Been the best
For everlast
Of my entire lyfe

Thanks to you
Im so grateful
For having you
My one and only.

2008 has come
And it wun last
For our YEAR is near
And that im looking for

i promise you though
There will be more of that
For wat i really wish
Is none but you.

Hello again

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 27 May 2007 15:15:00 +0000

haha after months of silence... im back people :) Sry ah just lazy to update after the fact that blogger din save my previous post and posted it blank. haha

Lyfes been fine. oh wait no... lyfe's been great lately. Im happy everyday :)
Been thru a lot last time and now its all been well. Just came back from a so called sharing session at assyakirin mosque conducted by bro Hamid. Well had lots of fun of coz. :)
Learn lots of stuff there. like Even a motivator needs to be motivated at times as no one is perfect :) And i realise he is right in saying wats the use of a leadership course? We are all already leaders. just that we needed to be reminded of the skills in us. Yep yep. very happy i am. Played UNO at 1 am then murderer then cheat haha. oh so fun!!! the murderer very good sey :P sampai ade orang kate murderer die bagus 3 kali pun orang tak realise haha. best best.

And people haha please do believe in when i say we are good frens coz we really are :) we believe in fate. and we believe in that He has set someone meant for us :p hehe and yes truthfully i dun believe in steads and all those things.so yep yep.

U know it doesnt matter if all of u think otherwise... its alrite. im not gona hate u or damn u for it coz i know what i feel and i know my directions :) Its alrite.

Hmms i really kinda need to save and i guess is shall in order for my hope to occur in darmawisata :P hehe. but that doesnt mean i will cut down on treating ppl :P hehe.

My bike's been fine. gona change some stuff soon i guess and i need to wash it again... wee!

-Bila yang tertulis untukku
-adalah yang terbaik untukmu
-akan ku jadikankau
-Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

thx for always being there.

What if??

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Mon, 07 May 2007 15:13:00 +0000

helo

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Wed, 25 Apr 2007 16:38:00 +0000

hmm 16 days tak update hehe. bukan malas tapi due kali i tried to update but lappy shut down hehe. so biarlah heh. entah kenape... have been feeling good nowadays with sri around and you around aha. and my mls family wee!. im just happy lar. im so looking forward to new events coming up and working with you people. insya allah. ill do my best. but i too am only human . so tegur menegur lar ye? insya allah everything will be fine heh.

Been two weeks since ive been going around with sri. and alhamdulillah im starting to know my ways. :) no speeding for me heh. max i went before is 100. ONCE and i nvr did reach it anymore due to a special reason :). Speeding kills baybeh haha. so yep due to this special reason. i only rode at 80-99 in expressway aha. and safely. alhamdulillah. cant rid of something in my mind aha. but im smilling though thinking bout it. someday ya? heh. Always ride safely my frens aha.

Anyway lyfes been fine lately. thats all for now heh.
----------------------------------------------------------------

U r wat makes me look foward to sch everyday.
Ur smile is what motivates me to work.
Sry if i upset ya somehow.
But lets keep to our promise ya?
Lets do our best this semester.
and prove it that we can!
Thank You! :)

Kem

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Mon, 09 Apr 2007 16:17:00 +0000

hmmm... hello again. dah lame kite tak update yer? hehe....
ok so now let me have an update shall we.... :)
So yep just came back from kem like last thursday. and oh my the kem was great i daresay.... i left the kem early half-heartedly sey.... aiyoo. one day u guys will know why aites.
So yep i left right after i presented the presentation for nurhayat. ahakz. and IM SOOO SORY FOR NOT HAVING MY FULL MOOD AND WAS VERY MOODY SO YEP I KnOw MY ATTITUDE SUCK and so does my presentation BUT Thank You for cheering :) you guys made my day. hehe.

So yep the kem overall was a huge success thanks to all the committee for organising it. you guys rock! :P and the manpower for putting in effort and lastly the kempers for attending hehe... so yep overall it was a blast baybeh.

Was thinking of giving day to day experince tapi mcm malas gitu kan ahakz so tak payah lar yer. hehe. let the pictures do the talking someday alrite. its in my multiply.. ill upload slowly tau. malas ah. hehe

So yep today was debrief...it went on fine but it was kinda sad ah with those who will be leaving us. we hafta say goodbye.... whether or not we like the person, love, hate or watever i daresay ill miss all of em after this. i dun wish to say goodbye yet in hopes that in the future insya allah we shall meet again ya.

and also to my dear lil sis. stay strong. its not the end really. ull have time, but for now build ur courage and strengh to face it...and insya allah one day, u will have ur say oright. :) stay strong. im here if ya need me kaes.

kudos to those leaving soon kaes and thx. MLS doors will forever be open to u guys *kalau tak pandai-pandai lar pecahkan pintu kaes* ahakz.

MLS COMING THRU!!! hee.

Its over.

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Thu, 29 Mar 2007 14:13:00 +0000

hmm haiyo finally hari ni bleh relax.... aiyo sugguh the stress sey... padanlah aku makin pendek... beban atas shoulder ni berat sangat. heh. maybe thats the reason why most pretty and bertanggung jawab gerls are short? hehe because they are carrying a heavy beban on their shoulder? :P aha yus merepek.

ok fine finally magazin siap.... ahakz besok gi amik. but aiyo so the disappointing. even though its not a bad start for my own first magazine-with lack of help. it still turn out fine. first and foremost. sry to hilmi and raudha that whatever u guys wrote isnt in the magazin but however ur credited still. there are quite a few errors in the magazine...aiyoyoy and the last page doesnt look like a last page lol. but still i added some pics in order to lessen the boring ness and increase the imagination for ppl to imagine our events hehe.

anyway so today yep was kinda quiet and stress up having to finish the layout on my own...siap kan P.P.P and redaksi... aiyoyo ahakz sry takde content page :P but oh well it ends well anyway but i ended up being stressed and quiet to someone today. haiyo im sooooo sry tau ! and sry that i din eat even though i told u that i will after u do.... takde time ah im really sorry. sry too that im quiet and din talk much with you. :( too stressed up ah hehe. but nowits all over and i can sleep early yay! and i just realise... that i have been sleeping at 4 for the past 4 days. aiyoyoyoy then going sch early.... i just realise it after i was talking to hilmi sey. i hadnt had much rest. even though u did have an early rest i din... i had work to do plak aiyoyoyo.... but now its over. wee.

anyway my time table is blank. its so unfair. heh.

Bidadari

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Wed, 28 Mar 2007 15:10:00 +0000

Bah been a busy week lately. haiyo... baik booth, baik name tag, badge , banner ,magazine, t-shirt lagik aduiiii.... pening sey kepala. dun even have time for myself. haiyo. doubt i have time to go recci anymore... till after kem. haiz... my dad pulak a lil choosy abt colour. haiyo then my brother plak. rather have a stronger bike. sampai biler lar... ahakz. oh well tak cerewet. ill wait alrite. as for now i can still take the train with someone heh..... nanti tak tahu lar plak kalau orang tu sudi tumpang tak hmm heh.

Name tag has proof to be not so easy since most of the work can only be done by you. i kinda felt helpless watching and doing very little so all i tried hard to make you laugh and smile with my company while we work on it. sry for not being so helpful yep. but ill push u on. coz i know u have the capablity and creativity. like the badge, nice handwriting.... ahakz. oh well....

naseb baik kambeng girl wanted to do the banner heh. sry k.girl i din wanna edit coz i have too much at hand to think abt.... t-shirt walaupun dah hantar quotation... sume but still i heard byk nak M size... haiyoyoyo... i scared the size dun tally. takpe takpe...

now magazine. haiyo besok nak gi print. duit lum ader. then layout lum habis. front page and back page pun takde... haiyoyoyoyoyo pening ler...... takpe takpe. giving up is soooo not my middle name with ya around.

anyway i just kinda hate the way someone acts as if nothing happened before. hmm coz of that my words became sharper. "Bloody Hell" man it was you that at first was nice to this person. then suddenly for a few reason. u were so damn harsh that it hurts. ur words. it stabbed thru the person's heart for goodness sake. and u din even try to apologize man. and now u came back trying to act nothing happened at all? Hmm man ur attitude kinda suck. if u ever so much as hurt this person again. ill hunt ya. and i swear to that.

*a fragile heart thats not meant to be broken no more*

Hmm there was once this bee. that remembered that 2 yrs ago when he first entered this bee sch... he was all alone suffering and pushing himself on without any frens because the rest of the bee's were either unfriendly or too different of a type. This past came back to his mind after another bee mention playfully that nobody wishes to be frens with that bee. hmm this bee became upset but apologise soon after. he din meant it to be awkward silence but he was a lil hurt but he knows it was a joke. he is fine now.

Camp is in what... 4 days? ahakz. hmm nad's sis will be in it... cool! but i doubt she knows/rems me anyway ahakz. hope she'll be happy and successful in this sch like her sis and her couz... heh.lets do our best and push a lil harder aites! go ppl! :)

*Kau umpama bidadari....Suci Bagai Embun Pagi.....* heh.

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 25 Mar 2007 08:57:00 +0000

ahakz aites warning this is gona be a looooooooooong post kaes. meant for somebody ahakz.

kae so yep ive healed alrite took me quite a while.... fall sick again on fri morning.... sakit lain plak... sakit rindu ahakz. just playing. sakit tekak lar. ape lar korang ni hee. sampai sekarang havent really heal though hmms. okae okae so what has happen from sunday till now? let me update u aites....

Ok on sunday apparently, my family entah ape angin... suddenly woke me up from my beauty sleep and says ...."YUS! bangun! Ade wanita lawa masuk minang!" ahakz i was shocked of coz....
ahakz ok ok im lame i know.... takdelar... she said... "Yus Bangun! nak ikut mak ngan abah ngan kakak sume gi giant tak?" so me feeling lazy just say hmm okae mak sume gi dulu ah later yus join.......haha then 1/2 hr later she woke me up again saying "YUS! kiteorang nak gi main bowling dulu jom bangun bangun ahakz" Terus yus bangun ahakz....

it was rare ah that my family wants to plae bowling ...since is the first time mom and dad and lil bro ever tried bowling so yep we went there with a taxi and my mum (rider chick :P) tumpang my bro on his new super four..... (ciss jeles aku.)hee. gi orchid country club main bowling...

Guess what my lil bro bowl punye slow tapi straight giler lol.... cute sey. ahakz (mcm abg die gak biase lar kan?) hee. he got one spare thruout 2 games... then my mum... die asyik shoot senget tapi bleh tahan okae ah.... she like so happy after ever shot then suddenly after the first game she said.... if ever she got a single strike...she will treat the game... ahakz took her quite some time then strike!!! lol kecoh giler sey my family aha... then she continued with a spare sey aha. lucky mummy :P my dad plak even though first time .... got like 3 strikes in the 2nd game with total of like 4 + spares heh.... my sis pun bagus gak! hehh... i was like happy lar seeing my family like that.

then my couz sis baru baik dari chicken berpox. plak disturb me and touch my hand alar! then terus demam lol..... demam takut tak dapat jumpe seseorang for 2 weeks xD hee....

Haha so then on monday plak... went to sch i think to do phamplet hee. but in the end i ended up watching the phamplet doer plak ahakz. then i realise i was falling sick lar... *so nice to slp on fc5 beside.....* ahakz. but oh well then ader meeting plak! aiyo.. so ended up meeting aku tido ahakz sakit nyer pasal makin teruk after orang balik.... aiyooo... nasib dorang tak kisah ahah! but bloody hell epin! ahakz

so tuesday demam became worst..cant get out of bed plak aiyoyoyo. ingatkan nak kluar ngan my brother sekali since sakit tak leh plak...haiz... aha nasib ader companion dari hp nokiaku hee.. thx! ahakz.... so yep i just got normal fever ah... and throat infection sampai sekarang lum baik aha. sry ama cldnt go ur bday celebration but happy belated being old anyway! ahakz

wednesday plak...pasal nak sangat jumpe orang datang sch... eh salah... pasal nak sangat abiskan phamplet aku gi lar sch hee... abis kan phamplet, print sume poster... and everything then alhamdulillah aha.... ended up mamaming stuff in tujuh sebelas. spagetti was overheated though ahakz sampai kering spagetti aku aha. but okae ah everything settle wee!!!! so felt better... tapikan that time lagi 2 hari someone going off plak haiyoo...........

hee so thursday...... hmm kluar for fun to enjoy my self... hee and i really did lar...... so fun sey! hehe.... mamam pizza bawah hut. so mengeyangkan... but i feel like eating kambing lasagne plak now... (takpe nanti raye haji leh sembelih the kambeng i booked to make lasagne) hehe. tgh music and lyrics... lagu die so nice sey. u guys shd listen (way back into love) heh... alhamdulilah.

then fri came. and past by. ahakz. no lar fri came.. then nampak sorang terbang gi cameron island. ahakz. so yep then gi solat darusallam. sebab ader meeting in the morning. tgk booth dulu.... so small sey. number 26. lepas solat continue meeting (boring sey :P) then set up booth sekejap... sikit sikit and print phamplet.... 70 for $4 bucks lol. then balik malam tu... hehe.

malam tu conference plak with kambeng girl and su(teletubbies) ahakz. dari kul 11 sampai 4 aduihai 2 makcik gossip ahakz and one nice guy listening :P . (yes yes i know i was suppose to sleep early lol. sorry !!!! dey needed me ah) heh. found out a lot of stuff that i have been missing ever since monday.... alot sey happen hmms.

So saturday at 7.15 ingat janji kambeng girl and kambeng president. sekali due due bgn lambat -.-" so yep i went alone lar tu... naik bus 969 gi tamp and guess what i was FOURTH!!! to arrive lol. its a miracle lol. i wasnt late hee. though its (830) haha. aiyoyoyoyo then plae match only first half. wasnt performing ah... and i kinda suck lol takde motivation and besides i wasnt really well yet so yep... 2nd half just rested.

lepas tu balik sch mamam ho fun! oh so fun! heh dengan su kambeng girl din wan alin and yan.... yum yum. then watch dorang train silat.. si sutubby kambeng girl and toya. hee foo.. tojang sendeng and sabit dorang so the seramkan then din lepaskan geram on pad plak hold my me or yan ahakz... nafsu binatang sey ditu ahakz....

then jumpe ahmad plak... maklum lame tak jumpe... tunggu pat bus stop sp sorang sampai terbobok2 ahakz then kite gi serangoon tgk motor stuff... for his wave... ahakz sampai magrib then solat at masjid kovan situ.. then go punggol fishing area... ahakz he let me rode his bike again but this time he tumpang ...(first time sey ditu tumpang motor sendirik!) haha. yep rode all the way till almost main road before gaving him back. mampus motor lain sey.. takde clutch biler tukar gear bike gegar sey...aha... rare giler but fun ah.... mase tu takde confident sal side mirror die aku tak leh nampak ahakz. so bawak slow.... haha but fun ah then balik.... balik tgk heroes jap then bobok siang at 10. (sry sesiape yang tried to bual! ahakz) boring ah semalam takde kawan. then today bangun jer at 6 lol.

solat then tido lagik...
sampai 11 then sms someone... then at 12.15 my story ended and i recovered..... dari sakit rindu ahakz! no lar just became happy again!!!! yay!!! end of story ahakz.

SiCk

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Tue, 20 Mar 2007 15:46:00 +0000

Ahakz went to the doctor and had a check up... im only having a high fever!!! wee! he said if ever imma gona kena chicken pox...its in 2 weeks before ill know... lets hope not aites or else i might missed camp ilusi aiyo! but today all i did was rest rest and more rest!! aiyoyoyo ahakz insya allah imma getting better heee wee!

Hope for the best!

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Tue, 20 Mar 2007 05:21:00 +0000

Guess what?

Im having a high fever right now...(darn it) and i have a feeling that it wun end soon...im just hoping that this wun turn to chicken pox bcoz if it does...im gona turn crazy like seriously!!!
imagine 2 weeks of not seeing my frens..... and someone. omg cant think abt it! 2 whole weeks? lets hope i dun catch this chicken pox aites... im really hoping i wun... bah im too weak to type right now.... gota catch a rest... taking care peeps. hope for the best aites. >.<

:( 2 weeks without ya? god, kill me. hehe.

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Fri, 16 Mar 2007 18:06:00 +0000

Hello ppl! hee sry lamer tak update... kae sekarang update kaes atas permintaan ikan di tank ikan rumah kite hehe.

So yep hows lyfe been? ahakz good and bad both man...

something pissed me off lately.
MY BROTHER JUST SOLD OFF HIS BLOODY BIKE FOR A CLASS 2A BIKE!!! OMG!
That just freaking hell rip my chances of trying his TZM lol.

oh wells.
he was suppose to survey a kapchai(waves) but instead bought a new bike.
The rest of the days was okae for me ah...

TP was hell for sure. damn nervous.... kalau tak caye leh tanye orang tu. ahakz.
My number was 74.... which means i have to wait for 73 ppl to pass by!!!
aiyoyoyooyoyo.
Lucky for me a msg came around 7+ which helped me relax and remain chilled :P

ahakz anyway tp result? aiyah tak yah tahu lar.... eh.

the rest of the passing week went by fine........ especially certain days that i can fishes swimming. xD

besok faizul balik...hurray! insya allah tml i update again kalau ader feelings ah hehe. taking care!

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 11 Mar 2007 16:54:00 +0000

Hmms and so it seems. i havent been updating. ahakz.
Not been busy, hehe. that i admit.
I rested 3 days at home! wee! and my ankle is getting better.
alhamdulillah

Tp is in 4 days. oh man i really fear it sey. takpe doakan me kaes?
Anyway been kinda happy lately alhamdulillah. despite all the troubles.
Insya allah ill get better.

And yep results out like i said i failed a module. and yep i realise next sem i have to take 8 modules... oh god help me ahakz. hopefully i can really do it kaes? i wann try my best this time. insya allah

*forever searching for the lost key*
*Ill find it someday*

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Thu, 08 Mar 2007 10:43:00 +0000

For You

I recently just made this and i like it so much that i wanna show heh.

Ah i still remember the day
U started to plant the seed in me
After ages of me trying to plant mine to urs
slowly and steadily i waited...

everyday i tried to water the seed in you
trying to make it grow
and it did...
very...very slowly
and it started to bloom....

And it was then that u...
finally wanted to plant the seed in me...
And surprisingly...
It grew very fast...
So fast that its both the same height now...

This seed has grown into a fine plant
Bearing proper fruits of knowledge around us...
And i shall forever water this plant...
And cared for promising never...to let it die
Or ever wither...
because this is the plant we called "trust"

Comment on it yeah :)

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Wed, 07 Mar 2007 13:18:00 +0000

Lyfe's Hard

Hmms Well what can i say? lyfe has been kinda terrible for me recently. not that im complaining but im holding on seriously with whatever is happening. Ku tabah menempuhinya dengan bantuan mu. heh. Well other than that, my day to day's are fine.

And yep so results are out. alhamdulillah. one look at it and you will think omg, ur result suck! ahakz. but then again after a few look at it, im thankful. because it was hardwork that made it like that. before u* came, i think my result wun be like this. the chances of me passing my maths was so little that my teacher even said, Yusri if u failed ur overall, ur gona have to treat me. and yes i believe im gona get the free treat.(thats what she said)ahakz. i think i had like 17% over 40% :/ then during the final i think i had scored like 70/100 alhamdulillah to achieve that 42%. alhamdulillah dun think i can achieve it without the push*.

Well for the rest of it, hmm especially my TCP/IP fooh, paper die nye lar susah... but alhamdulillah i got C for it. even though my results are C's and D+'s it was good enuf because i cld have scored all D's and D-'s with the effort i was putting in.

And yes i failed a module... now wait! before u guys have pity on me, please dun. it was my own decision that lead to the failure. i gave up on the project-based module. so yep i was expecting that "F". Gona have to work hard next sem with the extra module.

And oh my was i proud of u my fren.ur result was good despite all the troubles that seem to be haunting u. i really am happy to know. and that really make my day all shiny and bright heh.
Keep on going aites. Lets try harder this semester! wee! all smiles :)

Hmm yep it happen again. today. stayed home to watch it. it kept me speechless but i hold on. Kinda seem to be getting worst. kinda feel like in need of help but i din wanna disturb u hmms.takper ill hold on.

K next up. is nurhayat magazine. and this approach is kinda killing me. but i believe i can ah just really need motivation seriously, the ppl are mostly in attachment sey. argh. takpe ill try.

My mind has been thinking lately...
About facts of lyfe...
Emotions of people...
And if only you knew...
My mind ponders...

Ahakz was watching tv and watching Nana Tanjung sekali nampak waheeda ahakz teringat someone...... then teringat faizul. ahakz then suddenly in my mind, the song "shape of my heart" was playing in mind suddenly ahakz.

BACKSTREET BOYS
"Shape Of My Heart"

Hmm, yeah, yeah
Baby, please try to forgive me
Stay here don't put out the glow
Hold me now don't bother if every minute it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man that I've become, oh yeah

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Sadness is beautiful loneliness that's tragical
So help me I can't win this war, oh no
Touch me now don't bother if every second it makes me weaker
You can save me from the man I've become

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

I'm here with my confession
Got nothing to hide no more
I don't know where to start
But to show you the shape of my heart

I'm lookin' back on things I've done
I never wanna play the same old part
I'll keep you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart

Lookin' back on the things I've done
I was tryin' to be someone
I played my part, kept you in the dark
Now let me show you the shape of my heart
Show you the shape of my heart

haha nak lagu nudge me aites! lol. malas nak tukar lagu in this blog ah. :)

Shape of My Heart

(click the name then plae it)

noreply@blogger.com (PeaceZ) — Sun, 04 Mar 2007 11:47:00 +0000

A Tribute To My Mls President

Aku mendoakan agar kau selamat sampai dan selamat pulang.insya allah.

Aha and so we all send him off on 03.03.07 to umrah.

Aku berharap agar die dapat ketenangan daripada Allah S.W.T

Insya Allah.

The Meet Between Mr Giant And Mr Dwarf."Omg Ur So Huge"
Aha and so the story continues that another hairy monster made him cry! aha.

Heh Ok yus giler. lets post more piccy!

3 Yeo's Advertisers and 1 Toy 'r' us advertiser.(advertiser or big baby? :p)

Is This A Squirrel, A Kambeng Or A Rabbit?
Im Sure its not a human :p

Oh and this one is a classic! really! ahakz. sry su. caught u offguard.She is just SCRATCHING her nose though.Feeling rather stone after eating that vadeh.

K all that ended.
Here is a tribute to all the ladies.And You.

Jejaka. Wahai Kaum Adam,Kata-katamu sungguh mudah dipercayaiSungguh mudah dipengaruhiSungguh Sedap didengari Wahai Kaum Adam,Janji-janjimu sungguh senang dibuat,Sungguh mudah melemahkan hati kaum hawaSungguh senang juga ia dipecahi.

Wahai Kaum Adam,Sedarilah Semua kesilapan muTahuilah anda betapa sakitnya hati kaum wanitaApabila anda Menyakiti merekaBaik dgn kata-katamu ataupun janji-janjimu
Akan Tetapi... Wahai Kaum Hawa,Jgnlah Kamu pula berhenti mempercayai kaum adamAkan Kerna,Tidak Semua Kaum Adam sebegitu...Ada juga banyak Kaum Adam Yang baik-baik belakaDan Mereka bukan mudah dijumpaiAkan Tetapi,Carilah dengan nalurimuKerna mereka ada disekelilingmu.Menunggu akan masa yang tertentu.