Im back from darma.

Helo peeps. Im finally back :).
Wun update anything on darma YET.
Just wanna say that im back.

Alhamdulillah it all ends well.
And it even started well.
Even with flaws along the way.
It still din get to stop us
From having all the fun
Yet it helped us bond even stronger
It helped us found our inner self.

But still throughout the 3 days.
You guys said i was sick, tired with those yellow eyes.
Its weird eh, throut the 2 years in my poly life nobody saw that.
I aint sick nor tired. Its just me.
I aint perfect, coz nobody is.
Yet those yellow eyes are the ones watching out for u guys
Shd ever any of u goes out of line
Those eyes are the ones that will pull u back in.

Taking care of each and everyone of u aint easy.
Time,money,feelings and everything had to be sacrifised.
Even though at times, i became a lil selfish.
But i know my roles and went back to it
Im sry but at times even i needed my own time to reflect
NOT to be emo but just to reflect upon what i did and to my feelings.

Like i once told Mahirah, emo doesnt mean sad.
It doesnt mean that whenever ur emo,
U must show that sad face, depressed and crying.
thats wrong, being emo means sometimes u just needed some time alone.
But deep in the heart u wished, that someone would be there.
And so 5 angels with 2 devils came.

While i was enjoying the breeze and reflecting upon what i did.
They kinda relieved me.
Thankfully but still an hour later,
I was back to the same place alone again for the breeze there was addictive.

Wondering, Pondering, Thinking...
Am i only able to watch u from afar ?
Care for u only behind ur back?
I do not know, but what i knew.
is coming close to telling the truth.
For i finally understand what u truly meant.


Yus.