The full version ( i call it Love, Tears, Part and Fears of a family)

This is the full version to the gift for the exco made by ain and me.
This is also for those that did not get the chance to read it.
Enjoy it yeah. Its not perfect but plz do tell if u like /love it.
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Years in exco proved beneficial
Brothers were made, Sisters were introduced
Leaders were mould,Followers could lead
The time has come we lead our own lyfes.

A family was made after a fateful separation
A legacy lives on though the previous were not forgotten
New dramas came up over-riding the old one.
New friendship bonded with old ones.

Its sad to leave but fate decides
Its time to move on though the heart says no
Passing on is hard but its time to leave
Being apart is painful but the bond stays truthful

Losing people is part and parcel of life
Gaining others is advantages of losing one.
Sorry may seem the hardest word
But lets apologize before it was ever too late.

With this poetry came my tears
A pain to leave but never to stay.
A heart so painful yet so truthful
A family so bonded but yet to be parted.

Its a pain to leave my family
But its much more painful to stay
and not be a part of it
I guess its time for me to move on

Sorry may seem the hardest word
But I'm sorry for those hurtful things i did
I'm sorry too for being bad at tymes
And also when i made a hurtful decision for your better-ness.
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On May 2007, a new family was made
With the old one just parted
A new legacy has just started
An untold legend is yet to unfold

Din was made to mainly lead
With Yus and Faan as his sidekicks
Nani and Syak was to record our minutes
With Mahirah becoming our chetti

Wan and Yan was to clean mls
Wak and Azlin was to care for everyone
Su and Zureen was to cultivate some cultures
Ain and Rohani was to relate to public

14 of us were to fight our fears
Each mainly new to its desires
With all the coming challenges
We hold our heads up high and say "Mls coming through"

Bowling being the first fight
Breaking friendship making families
The real side of people were seen
All the hidden leadership were shown

A successful yet failure event to be truthful
A start to an effort to save cost
Ending up to be a lost instead
However with a lost came our famous name

However bad that may be,
Our names at last were being known
From North to south, East to west
Finally known was our name to others.

YIC was another start of a great bond
Recognising each other's talents and weaknesses
Repenting together in hopes of acceptance
Fighting together to obtain forgiveness

Iftar was a major success
Lead by a potential leader
With people coming from afar
Recognising us like we were old frens

Raya 07 was full of memories
Where we share our joys
And cried for forgiveness
It was time to part with an old family

Muzikarama came with which we fought
With all our might with money and all
Being transparent was a lesson learnt by many
To hold the bond between us family.

We don't exist as one but actually as many
With one we are actually nothing
With everyone we are warriors
Fighting together to win this war

I-kem came with many obstacles
And yet, we hold and fight with tears
Friendship were broken and yet remade.
Truth were known with past miseries

AGM 08 has finally come.
Its time to meet and say goodbye
Being replace with others so new
Its time to write another legacy

A final chapter to an old series
With it comes a new story
Full of action, full of tears
So for now we shall close the covers
To an old book we name SPMLS.

A wise leader once told us.
Blessings of God comes from the Unity of its people.
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Family

Brothers in Arms.
Sisters in Action

Memories Will last forever.

Its me.
It has always been me.
Im impressed like really.
By how a small heart can handle
Big and dangerous stuff.

I see things,
I feel things,
I hear things,
and i know things.

Thats my nature.
Not that i want to,
its just i was forced to.
Frankly said,
I do not wish to know

Sometimess,im sorry
I just had to ask
For reason known
The sadness in any of you.

And as you know
I dun force you to tell
And neither do i prod you till you tell
my sentence is always the same
If you dun wish to tell,its okae.

I LOVE YOU ALL

My heart felt true content.

You dun have to tell me the problem,
I just need you to tell me your feelings.
I believe some of you remember this sentences.
Its always repetitive.

Its my way.
Its what makes me, me.
I love you all
I really do

Though i have to sacrifise
I always remain neutral.
I do not hate nor do i favour people.
Except certain ones that
unfortunately hates/dislike me.

Depression is a part of me.
It has always been in me.
Coz i know someday,
ill be forgotten as always.

I am just a passer-by
a moment in most of your lives.
Asking to be remembered is too much
but believe me, i am a small part in all of you.

Someday my frens,brothers and sisters.
I request you of one thing.
To sit and reminisce when ur in trouble,
the times we spend,
the people who will look after you
And those that never forgets you.

Think abt the times when ur in trouble,
The people around you,
Those that is willing to sacrifise time for you.
Those who acted like they hate you, but loved u instead.
As a brother or a sister.

Though people change,
Their memories do not.
Though feelings disappear
Their past do not.

So whenever u felt like no one cares
or if ur old frens forgets you,
Think again.
For if they do,
They would have never created a passing memory.

Sometimes you people say im blunt
Or even too sharpBut im not.
Its just the way i am
You guys want me to accept the way you are
And i did
I hope you people accept me the way i am.

Im sorry for being blunt OR sharp.
Its just me when im serious.
Not when im angry.
When i am angry,my words
will just shut people up.

There is a reason behind everything i do,
Its not just a blunt decision
But mostly an appropriate one
Or at least a reasonable one.

When i tegur some of you,
Please understand,
Some lines are not meant to be crossed
So i have to pull u back.

Its not that i am angry but,
I have to analyze the situation.
And do the appropriate decision.

Forgive me for i have done many wrongs.
Forgive me if i had step beyond your line
Forgive me if my caring crossed your personal space.

Will you accept me the way i am?

My Family, Hear My Heart's True Feelings

My brothers and sisters,
The time for me to stay here is not long
Its about time when the school says go
And my reality appears.

To face reality, is painful
For i do not wish to leave you all
My heart says no
But the time says go.

To Zureen,
You are someone i respect.
A brother i can call
amazingly ur much better than i thought u would be
Someone with the capability to go far.
But you have to stop your laziness
More of initiative is needed for success
I see a good future in you

To Rohani,
Friendliness without boundary is dangerous
Know how to filter between good and bad
Some people just wish for attention
While others needed your listening ear.
Sometimes you have to pour urself out too
Find the right people i hope
For sometimes filling up too much
May just cause you to burst.

To Syakirah,
I am amaze by your leadership
To lead and to push
However your tone you have to watch
Because sometimes being fierce and strict
Is two different things
Strict is good but being fierce,wud stop people
From really wanting to listen
Sometimes a nicer approach is better.
But i have faith that you will go far.

To Ridzwan,
You are always a brother to me.
Though u are a bad tempered person
I know u are a kind hearted person
You r willing to go far for someone
You regarded as a family
But sometimes its good to forgive and forget than
To actually be angry.
Everything is just a part and parcel of lyfe.
I saw ur potential the first time i saw you
Thats why i fight for you at times.
Please dun disappoint me ya

To Sufyan,
You and me always click
We are brothers by nature.
Our interest are what binds us together
Its always easy for us to get along yes?
We fight together, we fall together.
You are someone who has big dream
A reality check kind of dream
I believe if u continue working hard,
you will get there someday.
Continue my brother,Fight for justice!
But beware of ur surroundings,
for some may just be shallow.
And Credibility is always better than just plain loyalty

To Ahmad Abdillah,
You are a playful person
Although i respect that u know how to do your work
And that you are not afraid to ask when you are in doubt
But sometimes all it takes is faith and courage
For you already have the skill
And i see you sometimes lack the initiative
But i have faith in your potential to lead
In terms of religion, you are well equip
And for others, you are prepared to learn
This kind of attitide will bring you far as well.
Work hard and continue asking but push when u have to.

To Mahirah,
Sometimes i see your screw is loose.
Really loose haha.
But im impress that u held well
You held well to my constant attack of craziness
And you no longer get hurt or break down by it
Yet nowadays you can slowly counter those.
But frankly i meant well, those are actually meant
for you to have faith,courage to hold yourself
By doing this you build yourself a shield.
A shield that you r proud of to protect and to attack
I believe that now u have great faith in urself to lead
And you are no longer anti-social or lonely
Its just you have yet to learn to use the power of frens hehe.
Sometimes the power in us comes from friendship that we earn.

To Azlin,
One such example of power from friendship is what drives you
You live not just for yourself but for others as well
You work with the drive to help not to succeed.
You are willing to sacrifise your time and energy just so people
Can benefit and strive.
But do listen to my advice sometimes we have to be selfish
Because by being a little more selfish, we are actually
Showing that we love ourselves just as much as we love others
Your body and your soul needs your care just as much as others that needs you around.
You are a jovial and happy go lucky girl
But deep inside, who knows? haha
Continue helping others girl but take care of yourself kae?

To Suhailah,
I hate green.
Haha just kidding.
You are one hell of a always smilling and happy girl.
But sometimes i see you put more effort in your interest heh
Do remember, studies is also more important.
So yep do maintain a suitable level of importance to everything
Including YOURSELF.
Sometimes like i said above, being selfish is important.
Its to prove that you love urself just as much as others.
You are like a real family to me having work two yrs with you
We have experience falling, getting up, happiness and also sadness.
But all of this will benefit us in the future insya allah.
Dun forget sister, im here always shd u need a spillover.

To Nuraini Jasni,
A self declared sister of mine haha.
But nevertheless i treat you like one and no i have nvr forgotten you.
If u remember well, im always around you.
And i have NVR ignored you.
Despite being busy or not when i see you, i will always say hi.
Or at least i will always tegur or disturb you to prove i still care for you
I dun know what is happening between us. But do take note i have nvr gone away,
Im still here acknowledging you as my family and wishing you come back
For we people actually still cares for you.
We wish to talk wif you but its just harder now
with you rarely coming to us like you used to.
Please dun get me wrong, We still talk abt you and where you have gone.
Sometimes we wonder why you dun come to us when u have problems anymore
So when u really do have a problems dun assume we dun care, its more
of that we dun actually know.Do remember those times, even though i was in class,
i was willing to come.Those time when you were down,
i stayed outside till late to ensure ur home
Im recalling because i miss those times we were a family.

To Farhan,
Haha A close brother of mine ever since god knows when
Haha Always with his crazy ideas but humble with his knowledge
I respect your approach wif people.
We fought hard together ever since the start of 35th
For the pressure was more of us than for din.
Haha we are to support din shd he fall
But due to his large size i dun think we can handle him hehe
But no, with the problems we faced, we kind of held well.
We fought hard and we learn well.
I believe you are now ready to move on to bigger things
To lead well and to serve well.
You are the next generation and i shall help you the best i cld
As long as im here still, i shall help in anyway i can.
Brothers for lyfe.

To Din,
You and your kedegilan.
Haha yet you still strive hard and sacrifise a lot to help others
Though whatever u are doing are actually behind takbir
People cant actually see and appreciate those that you did
But i see and i appreciate.
However sometimes, you dun have to do everything
You just need to learn to share the job and share stuff.
You dun have to actually help everyone,
just those that actually needs you.
Its not selfish, its just doing the right thing.
Helping everyone is not the correct way.
Sometimes people have to learn to stand up for themselves.
And your words. Sometimes they hurt others.
Without your knowledge.For me its my tone. but for you its your words.
Think properly abt others before we speak ya.
I wish you well for ur future endeavour
Though i still hate you for leaving my FYP group!

To My other half,
You are my everything
Though we quarrel at times
I ensure we are okae at others.
Without you im nothing
Sorry if sometimes i just break down
There is no one else i can do that with.
Just with you. I am able to share just like you did to me.
Sometimes its just my nature to be upset if u accidentally forget me
For it shows i remember you hehe.
But do know that whatever i do, its with you in my mind.
And for exco wise im proud of you
Frankly said, i have no say in letting you join the exco.
Its the choice of 34th exco to put you in.
They wun let me choose nor will they let me interview you,
But im happy they made the right choice putting you in.
And i believe you learn well over the past yr.
You are now able to stand on your feet to prove yourself.
However sometimes decision needs to be made on ur own.
Sometimes i can advice but the decision lies on u.
But i have faith that you are much more capable than you think you are.
Thanks for everything.

My pain

I have been rather quiet
Rather lonely
Yet I am there for everyone.

Though i am rather lonely
There's you beside me
And there's me with you.

Things have been rather....
out-of-hand
My mind's tired.

I sometimes feel that
I just cant take this anymore
But i endure With you,
My source of hope.

The reason i dun blog
is obvious,
I just cant bring myself
to let it out

Ill cry soon enough
Someday, sometime
And i foresee that
It is very near.

Even now my heart feels
the pain developing
slowly yet steadily

The reason you ask?
It has always been there.
As i have always been here.

I have been rather quiet about things
Rather further than some of you
I no longer ask about problems

And i no longer lend an ear.
Now thats my mistake.
For that im drifting apart.
Im tearing apart.

I thought with just you,
I could live.
and i did.
But not for long.

With just you,
I lost my respect,
My credibility,
My self in short.

Things i used to do,
Things i did
And things i can do,
I rarely do.

Do you realise the change?

A letter?

Aww crap...

I received my NS enlistment letter a couple of days ago...
So yep i had to defer again (woohoo!!)
And so i tried today...

Bah!
guess what?
Haha after writing in my deferred date... The system said that i din need to defer!!!
And my enlisting is already set to AFTER that date (oct 2008--> my unofficial grad date)

BOOHOO! haha but oh well look on the bright side of lyfe!
I am able to spend december ( my probably enlisting date) till april in ns while my *her is still studying :p

Haha i made it sound as if its a good thing but its NOT! haha
Oh well look likes my days are numbered!

The House!

Wee! One paper down! one paper to go!

Haha my first paper was fine actually except for occasional blank moments heh.
Hmm my first paper was actually hmm Network management.

Network network network... been seeing a lot of this word lately...
From network marketing to networking to wireless network to now network management.
And guess what everything is DIFFERENT! haha.

Oh well today i took a timeout with *her heh. Went to vivo after her papers (which she said was quite hard!) hah
Guess what we did ? hah we watch a movie!
We watch the movie "The House"

I really recommend this movie to you people heh. Scary really really scary. Its not like those regular-overated not-so-scary movie.

I would have shared the story line for you people but i really don't want to spoil it heh.
Go watch it! its a thumbs up hehe.
Seriously even i was scared heh.
The sound effects were great also sey.

So yep after that just had a stroll before going back hee.

Oh btw i realise that the bookshop at vivo... the one nearest to GV... Has ALOT of good books.
I went to the comic sections and saw dozens of unseen comics before... Woo! nice nice hee.

Hello mellow Turn my blue pants Yellow!

Haha helo peeps.
Its been ahwhile eh?
Sorry i have been quite lazy to update recently because i din find a real purpose in blogs.
However i did realise there are many aspects to blogs other than just a normal update of our lives.
Don't believe? haha someday i am going to share it with you people.

However for now, let me just lie low and continue doing some research to it.
You know, ever since i have been told about business ideas and such,
I found out that business is very wide.
Its not just about retailing or selling things...
Anything that can make you money is called making a business heh (DUH!)

So what is it that we are really aiming in lyfe?
Besides being accepted by Allah s.w.t ?
Our lives is actually short and yep i realise that its not too early to start now.

Sometimes we just tend to procrastinate our doings, our plans, our future...
But do you know that if u start to at least plan now? You can make your future a better place?

I know some of you must be thinking...
"OH COME ON! we are only *fill in ur age* What can we do at this age?"

Well the answer is... many things...
We always think that during our youth years are those years we spend to enjoy lyfe.
Well we can always "enjoy" our lyfe and yet even benefit from it.

How? How can we do it... Hehe
Go Find out yourself! haha.

Who knows if i feel like it , i might just write on it the next time hehe

Oh btw if anyone has plans maybe to run a small business or whatever, you can always approach me or "us" if you need web hosting and design :) We might be able to work out a deal.

Lyfe's all about you.

The time has come
When its time to say
Goodbye to you...
And hello to new.

What i meant...
is something in depth
That i shall truly explain...

A year has past
When i truly dread
Viewing the future
And awaiting fear

I was met
With a pain so deep
That i fall apart

Though truly bleed
I stayed alive
For something has kept
Me sane Till now

And so it happen
That i went after
For 7 months past
Till then you came

You came to realise
For wat was true
And you came to realise
That im for you.

In that following year
I wait for you
For 2 months almost past
I thot i lose you.

I was wrong
Oh i really was
For fate came
And Talk to you

The day finally came
That you finally said yes
And my wait was finally futile
Coz my lyfe has finally changed

A month later
I passed my license
Though i lied to you
You still saw thru me

A month later
A New Wife came
While people was happily ending Kem ilusi
I was sadly making my way home to choose my wife

What wife i was talking about?
Heh for all of you
Here is the name
ITs called Kapchai!

A month later my birthday came
It came wif joy
And pride thereafter
Coz i was celebrating
Wif No one BUT you!

Months has passed
And im still happy
Till The nations birthday
It was yours too.

I hope you like it
I hope u fancied it
Coz thats not only it
And i promise there is more to come

Till now we last
Im still so happy
To finally have met
Someone so hippie

To you i shall say
What i wanted to say
2007 has past
But the memories will last.

2007 has yet
Been the best
For everlast
Of my entire lyfe

Thanks to you
Im so grateful
For having you
My one and only.

2008 has come
And it wun last
For our YEAR is near
And that im looking for

i promise you though
There will be more of that
For wat i really wish
Is none but you.

Hello again

haha after months of silence... im back people :) Sry ah just lazy to update after the fact that blogger din save my previous post and posted it blank. haha

Lyfes been fine. oh wait no... lyfe's been great lately. Im happy everyday :)
Been thru a lot last time and now its all been well. Just came back from a so called sharing session at assyakirin mosque conducted by bro Hamid. Well had lots of fun of coz. :)
Learn lots of stuff there. like Even a motivator needs to be motivated at times as no one is perfect :) And i realise he is right in saying wats the use of a leadership course? We are all already leaders. just that we needed to be reminded of the skills in us. Yep yep. very happy i am. Played UNO at 1 am then murderer then cheat haha. oh so fun!!! the murderer very good sey :P sampai ade orang kate murderer die bagus 3 kali pun orang tak realise haha. best best.

And people haha please do believe in when i say we are good frens coz we really are :) we believe in fate. and we believe in that He has set someone meant for us :p hehe and yes truthfully i dun believe in steads and all those things.so yep yep.

U know it doesnt matter if all of u think otherwise... its alrite. im not gona hate u or damn u for it coz i know what i feel and i know my directions :) Its alrite.

Hmms i really kinda need to save and i guess is shall in order for my hope to occur in darmawisata :P hehe. but that doesnt mean i will cut down on treating ppl :P hehe.

My bike's been fine. gona change some stuff soon i guess and i need to wash it again... wee!

-Bila yang tertulis untukku
-adalah yang terbaik untukmu
-akan ku jadikankau
-Kenangan yang terindah dalam hidupku

thx for always being there.

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