My pain

I have been rather quiet
Rather lonely
Yet I am there for everyone.

Though i am rather lonely
There's you beside me
And there's me with you.

Things have been rather....
out-of-hand
My mind's tired.

I sometimes feel that
I just cant take this anymore
But i endure With you,
My source of hope.

The reason i dun blog
is obvious,
I just cant bring myself
to let it out

Ill cry soon enough
Someday, sometime
And i foresee that
It is very near.

Even now my heart feels
the pain developing
slowly yet steadily

The reason you ask?
It has always been there.
As i have always been here.

I have been rather quiet about things
Rather further than some of you
I no longer ask about problems

And i no longer lend an ear.
Now thats my mistake.
For that im drifting apart.
Im tearing apart.

I thought with just you,
I could live.
and i did.
But not for long.

With just you,
I lost my respect,
My credibility,
My self in short.

Things i used to do,
Things i did
And things i can do,
I rarely do.

Do you realise the change?