My Heart, My Soul

 

Monday, April 14, 2008

Family




Brothers in Arms.
Sisters in Action

Memories Will last forever.

Its me.
It has always been me.
Im impressed like really.
By how a small heart can handle
Big and dangerous stuff.

I see things,
I feel things,
I hear things,
and i know things.

Thats my nature.
Not that i want to,
its just i was forced to.
Frankly said,
I do not wish to know

Sometimess,im sorry
I just had to ask
For reason known
The sadness in any of you.

And as you know
I dun force you to tell
And neither do i prod you till you tell
my sentence is always the same
If you dun wish to tell,its okae.

I LOVE YOU ALL

My heart felt true content.

You dun have to tell me the problem,
I just need you to tell me your feelings.
I believe some of you remember this sentences.
Its always repetitive.

Its my way.
Its what makes me, me.
I love you all
I really do

Though i have to sacrifise
I always remain neutral.
I do not hate nor do i favour people.
Except certain ones that
unfortunately hates/dislike me.

Depression is a part of me.
It has always been in me.
Coz i know someday,
ill be forgotten as always.

I am just a passer-by
a moment in most of your lives.
Asking to be remembered is too much
but believe me, i am a small part in all of you.

Someday my frens,brothers and sisters.
I request you of one thing.
To sit and reminisce when ur in trouble,
the times we spend,
the people who will look after you
And those that never forgets you.

Think abt the times when ur in trouble,
The people around you,
Those that is willing to sacrifise time for you.
Those who acted like they hate you, but loved u instead.
As a brother or a sister.

Though people change,
Their memories do not.
Though feelings disappear
Their past do not.

So whenever u felt like no one cares
or if ur old frens forgets you,
Think again.
For if they do,
They would have never created a passing memory.

Sometimes you people say im blunt
Or even too sharpBut im not.
Its just the way i am
You guys want me to accept the way you are
And i did
I hope you people accept me the way i am.

Im sorry for being blunt OR sharp.
Its just me when im serious.
Not when im angry.
When i am angry,my words
will just shut people up.

There is a reason behind everything i do,
Its not just a blunt decision
But mostly an appropriate one
Or at least a reasonable one.

When i tegur some of you,
Please understand,
Some lines are not meant to be crossed
So i have to pull u back.

Its not that i am angry but,
I have to analyze the situation.
And do the appropriate decision.

Forgive me for i have done many wrongs.
Forgive me if i had step beyond your line
Forgive me if my caring crossed your personal space.

Will you accept me the way i am?

My Family, Hear My Heart's True Feelings

My brothers and sisters,
The time for me to stay here is not long
Its about time when the school says go
And my reality appears.

To face reality, is painful
For i do not wish to leave you all
My heart says no
But the time says go.

To Zureen,
You are someone i respect.
A brother i can call
amazingly ur much better than i thought u would be
Someone with the capability to go far.
But you have to stop your laziness
More of initiative is needed for success
I see a good future in you

To Rohani,
Friendliness without boundary is dangerous
Know how to filter between good and bad
Some people just wish for attention
While others needed your listening ear.
Sometimes you have to pour urself out too
Find the right people i hope
For sometimes filling up too much
May just cause you to burst.

To Syakirah,
I am amaze by your leadership
To lead and to push
However your tone you have to watch
Because sometimes being fierce and strict
Is two different things
Strict is good but being fierce,wud stop people
From really wanting to listen
Sometimes a nicer approach is better.
But i have faith that you will go far.

To Ridzwan,
You are always a brother to me.
Though u are a bad tempered person
I know u are a kind hearted person
You r willing to go far for someone
You regarded as a family
But sometimes its good to forgive and forget than
To actually be angry.
Everything is just a part and parcel of lyfe.
I saw ur potential the first time i saw you
Thats why i fight for you at times.
Please dun disappoint me ya

To Sufyan,
You and me always click
We are brothers by nature.
Our interest are what binds us together
Its always easy for us to get along yes?
We fight together, we fall together.
You are someone who has big dream
A reality check kind of dream
I believe if u continue working hard,
you will get there someday.
Continue my brother,Fight for justice!
But beware of ur surroundings,
for some may just be shallow.
And Credibility is always better than just plain loyalty

To Ahmad Abdillah,
You are a playful person
Although i respect that u know how to do your work
And that you are not afraid to ask when you are in doubt
But sometimes all it takes is faith and courage
For you already have the skill
And i see you sometimes lack the initiative
But i have faith in your potential to lead
In terms of religion, you are well equip
And for others, you are prepared to learn
This kind of attitide will bring you far as well.
Work hard and continue asking but push when u have to.

To Mahirah,
Sometimes i see your screw is loose.
Really loose haha.
But im impress that u held well
You held well to my constant attack of craziness
And you no longer get hurt or break down by it
Yet nowadays you can slowly counter those.
But frankly i meant well, those are actually meant
for you to have faith,courage to hold yourself
By doing this you build yourself a shield.
A shield that you r proud of to protect and to attack
I believe that now u have great faith in urself to lead
And you are no longer anti-social or lonely
Its just you have yet to learn to use the power of frens hehe.
Sometimes the power in us comes from friendship that we earn.

To Azlin,
One such example of power from friendship is what drives you
You live not just for yourself but for others as well
You work with the drive to help not to succeed.
You are willing to sacrifise your time and energy just so people
Can benefit and strive.
But do listen to my advice sometimes we have to be selfish
Because by being a little more selfish, we are actually
Showing that we love ourselves just as much as we love others
Your body and your soul needs your care just as much as others that needs you around.
You are a jovial and happy go lucky girl
But deep inside, who knows? haha
Continue helping others girl but take care of yourself kae?

To Suhailah,
I hate green.
Haha just kidding.
You are one hell of a always smilling and happy girl.
But sometimes i see you put more effort in your interest heh
Do remember, studies is also more important.
So yep do maintain a suitable level of importance to everything
Including YOURSELF.
Sometimes like i said above, being selfish is important.
Its to prove that you love urself just as much as others.
You are like a real family to me having work two yrs with you
We have experience falling, getting up, happiness and also sadness.
But all of this will benefit us in the future insya allah.
Dun forget sister, im here always shd u need a spillover.

To Nuraini Jasni,
A self declared sister of mine haha.
But nevertheless i treat you like one and no i have nvr forgotten you.
If u remember well, im always around you.
And i have NVR ignored you.
Despite being busy or not when i see you, i will always say hi.
Or at least i will always tegur or disturb you to prove i still care for you
I dun know what is happening between us. But do take note i have nvr gone away,
Im still here acknowledging you as my family and wishing you come back
For we people actually still cares for you.
We wish to talk wif you but its just harder now
with you rarely coming to us like you used to.
Please dun get me wrong, We still talk abt you and where you have gone.
Sometimes we wonder why you dun come to us when u have problems anymore
So when u really do have a problems dun assume we dun care, its more
of that we dun actually know.Do remember those times, even though i was in class,
i was willing to come.Those time when you were down,
i stayed outside till late to ensure ur home
Im recalling because i miss those times we were a family.

To Farhan,
Haha A close brother of mine ever since god knows when
Haha Always with his crazy ideas but humble with his knowledge
I respect your approach wif people.
We fought hard together ever since the start of 35th
For the pressure was more of us than for din.
Haha we are to support din shd he fall
But due to his large size i dun think we can handle him hehe
But no, with the problems we faced, we kind of held well.
We fought hard and we learn well.
I believe you are now ready to move on to bigger things
To lead well and to serve well.
You are the next generation and i shall help you the best i cld
As long as im here still, i shall help in anyway i can.
Brothers for lyfe.

To Din,
You and your kedegilan.
Haha yet you still strive hard and sacrifise a lot to help others
Though whatever u are doing are actually behind takbir
People cant actually see and appreciate those that you did
But i see and i appreciate.
However sometimes, you dun have to do everything
You just need to learn to share the job and share stuff.
You dun have to actually help everyone,
just those that actually needs you.
Its not selfish, its just doing the right thing.
Helping everyone is not the correct way.
Sometimes people have to learn to stand up for themselves.
And your words. Sometimes they hurt others.
Without your knowledge.For me its my tone. but for you its your words.
Think properly abt others before we speak ya.
I wish you well for ur future endeavour
Though i still hate you for leaving my FYP group!

To My other half,
You are my everything
Though we quarrel at times
I ensure we are okae at others.
Without you im nothing
Sorry if sometimes i just break down
There is no one else i can do that with.
Just with you. I am able to share just like you did to me.
Sometimes its just my nature to be upset if u accidentally forget me
For it shows i remember you hehe.
But do know that whatever i do, its with you in my mind.
And for exco wise im proud of you
Frankly said, i have no say in letting you join the exco.
Its the choice of 34th exco to put you in.
They wun let me choose nor will they let me interview you,
But im happy they made the right choice putting you in.
And i believe you learn well over the past yr.
You are now able to stand on your feet to prove yourself.
However sometimes decision needs to be made on ur own.
Sometimes i can advice but the decision lies on u.
But i have faith that you are much more capable than you think you are.
Thanks for everything.

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