Losing Control....

I've Tried... i really did but still it wasnt hard enuf ....Some1 did get hurt and blood...I saw blood dripping profusely from the child's mouth....Was it my fault? No it wasnt... coz se was kicked by other children but....i felt it...i felt wrong and responsible ...why? becoz i let too many children in so it was my fault.. Argh I was traumatised for hrs.

Today is full of wrongs with rights being in the wrong way. Pressured and surpressed with guilt and fear thus with the lost of trust. I'm losing control of myself...I moved my hands with it felt as if it moved on its on...Wat is this feeling? I Lost Trust and Respect for ppl whom i used to call frens . Wat have i done wrong to deserve all this? Was i too gentle,Too small,or just minute to u guys ? Fine u wanted...i Borrowed ...I asked to return but u delayed..Fine...After 6 months u returned it ...spoiled... so we agreed on u buying new boots but waited for 4 months nth...BRo bought his own boot...fine asked u paid...ok..nxt day u claimed its not fair and u dun want to pay? Wat is this? U pushed all the responsibility to me and think that im superman?

Argh ppl....Ironically Contradicting. Too bad to say i ve lost all my trust on u guys cept some...I really dun know who i am anymore...it just aint fair tat it turns out this way. Being nice to others but treated the other way around...Im losing myself and i really dun want to change but being taken advantage of really hurts....Sad im ironically helping some1 else to cope with their problems...why? Bcoz i care and i really do coz she is my fren and wenever some1 is in trouble i always put them first b4 myself Even if my life is on the line and tat my fren is the True Words from PeaceZ. Juz placed myself out of the league and being a "xxx" too haha.