Dream within a dream? or Reality in Denial?
Its almost a year and in 115 days im going to ORD and be free yet...All this still feels as if its a dream. And i just cant seem to wake up and face reality.hmm
Some unspoken words lies within that i ve longed wanted to say but hmm.
Anyway just another rant.
Not everybody get the way i feel
The nooks and crany of my heart
The ins and outs of my inner self
The uncontrollable wave inside me
Its not that i do not want
Nor the fact that i do not care
its just not me
Uts the thing i do that defines me
Its not that i do not like single lyfe
Nor its that im going after a r/s
But my heart is overflowing with love
Just for the sake of caring and showering love
I know that the state im in
Is very confusing and hard to subtle with
Its like a huge burning fire inside
Or a huge wave that coincides
My heart and mind are saying different things
One wishes to remain single and free
while the other wishes to have someone for me
But they both agree that im not ready for either
What is so hard
I never did understand
What is so tough
I never could imagine
But what i do realise
I live for myself rite now
For my family and god
And that i guess is above all.