Hmm

And the world is cruel and cold.
Just so you know.

As i heard the stories told
And all the problems unfold
All my confidence are sold
As we know the world is cold.

As i sat by watching the beauty of this world, i realise that not everything is as it seems.
I realize that i am lucky to be in this family of mine. With everything complete.

Not everyone has this luxury to be in this kind of family... Some doesnt have a complete one at all. While others only has themselves with no siblings and just a mum. Others have divorced parents.

Why am i not thankful enough? Why do i feel that the problems surrounding me is too much when its nothing compared to theirs? Others are not brought up without the love of a father. And yet they fought their way through.

Problems as i used to say are avoidable though its inevitable. We cant run away from them coz they will keep hunting us as we go along.

I had to take time off this two days coz i cldnt take it. Whats with her and those status in fb which hurts me like nobody business. Dun she realise the reason why my status are either neutral or nothing at all? Its to care for her feelings. I din even wrote the wish to forget her or anything. And yet u wish to erase your past.ME.

The only reason i moved on was because u said it would never be the same. Do u even think i was that capable of moving on? I dun understand why it hurts u so much. Have u ever thought of the fact that if it hurts u that much, it would hurts me at least twice of what u felt? u left me.

Hmm. What made matters worst. I tried to take time off my going to the dam but the friend whom was with me, made it worst by making me listen to a painful song. and asking me to be quiet at the same time? Only God knows how i felt then. And yesterday at work, she even became mean to the point i just had to leave.

I just had to retract back to my shell. U know the point of when u just felt u want to be alone and not be bothered by anyone at all? haha that was how i felt.

I just wish i could run away. Having feelings for someone new hurts as well. Coz u may never know how it will all turn out all over again. Even though i may wish for it, But the pain is unbearable. Hmm i fear that its unfair to both. And i fear that rejection i never had for 3 years.

Ouh im getting back to the right path now. Hopefully to change for the better.

I dunno why my head feels lyk spinning around rite now. hehe.

Oh well lets leave that all behind shall we?

The troubles that seem here to stay
Are making my head dizzy and sway
The smile that i once thot i had
Is running away as it once did

A smile so true yet so fake
A happiness that just fade
A smart mind without any use
And lastly romance of nothingness.