Am i turning 22?

Heylo people!

I know i dun update frequently and only when i felt lyk it.
And today is just one of those days.

a year ago, it was just soo different. I felt as if i was on top of the world. Happy, satisfied and so looking forward to May 13 but today, it just seems lyk another normal day.

And tomorrow too will be another normal day. I just feel as if i was raise so high up and dropped all the way down. It just feels sooo empty. A birthday off? hmm looks lyk ill be spending my time in the library the whole day reading or something... i cant figure it out yet hehe.

However i am thankful of one thing. And i believe its enuf to be satisfied of my bday this yr in 2010. And that is knowing you. The girl with an awesome attitude and a pretty smile and a special accented-voice :) Beautiful.

Its okae if i dun have the chance to get close or to even know u better yet. Ill try but only HE decides whats best for you. Knowing you for this 5 months helped me face many fears and troubles.

No matter how tml goes, at least im thankful i survived. Its sad really. I wished nothing changed last yr till this but i guess HE has better plans for her. I guess ill just have to move on.

Thank you Allah S.W.T

This was dated November 15, 2009

Hmm i wanted to pull the memories of the past down from my facebook NOTES as i was hiding it all along. however some memories are best to be kept, not because i cldnt move on but because it reminds me of what made me who i am today.

So for memory keepsake, i shall store it here.
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YOU.

For all i know and realise
Nothing in this world ever mattered
Nothing at all not even myself
I never learnt to care nor to love

That is till i met YOU
You taught me what it is to be humble
To care and to love
To realise that i am nothing by myself

You are the world to me
Nothing and i really mean nothing
Scares me more than losing you
It feels lyk its the end for me

You are what kept me going
The one that made me move
The one that made me realise
that i can make a difference

Please do not think that you were a hindrance
The truth is that you are my fuel
Without you i ll stop moving
I truly deeply need you.

I know that im not good enuf for you
And i truly apologise
I try my best to be someone
But you are always good enuf for me.

Please do not leave me
unless you truly have a good reason
Maybe if you really stop loving me
Or you found your mr Right
Then i have no right to stop you

But please do note that
You truly are my everything
And i truly beg you please do not leave me hanging
And i know you dun tink that i am trying

But truth be told i always am giving and trying my best for you.
Please give me a second chance at the very least ?
For i truly love you like there's no other.























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And this below was dated May 12 2009, Just 4 days more to one year old and one day before my birthday.

Shd anyone ask what makes my beautiful day
Its not the sun nor the moon
Its something underneath the clouds
Its just you my beautiful one :)

The one who shines and
Light up my gloomy days
The one who darkens the sun and
makes it just right.

Shd anyone ask what was i referring to
Its not just anyone that was in my mind
Its just something that simplifies my lyfe
Its just you my sweetest one :)

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Now goodbye my old love. Its time i truly move on just the same as how you had aldy done so.

Its time to bury my memories and start planting the seeds to a new future.