Salam people...

hmm i dun know why... after u stop replying to my sms at 12.10 midnite. and then reading heerah's blog... I felt all teary, all sad... a lil bit happy as well. hmm i dun know why. i hope u guys like the ham i bought for u guys aites. i have been searching for that thing for god knows how long. i do know tht its being sold in Giant at bedok but i haven had the chance to buy it before. then somehow at sheng shiong, i just felt like buying it. so yep. though i din taste it aha. din have the mood to eat it. sry mory yep.

Anyway, hmm i realise there is no fluctuation in my mood for the past week and this few days. However i also realise im not as lyfely as i used to be. Well no im not being emotional. im just tired. darn tired. physically and emotionally. I have been out for the whole of last 2 weeks plus this week maybe. hmm. playing soccer most of the time, meetings and outings. i really kinda need a break. maybe movies or just plain sleep for more than 8 hrs at home. lately my slping time is after 2 and waking time by 6/8 or 10.(10 case oversleep and late for stuffs :P)

Hmm that explains why sometimes im down or not that hyper. aha. i do feel fresh but i just dun have the energy to be crazy. e.g at east coast. aha yep i was down because im partially tired and have no appetite. to be truthful, i only ate the 1st b.b.q chicken after nani and her mom left. hmms but my appetite came back when i was at home. ate su's mum nyer mee then the hotdoggies and charcoaled chicken hehe. sedap jugak mee tu! kudos to ur mum!

Hmm i also realised.... i have been to ecp 3 times. but everytime i went home, i dun have this satisfaction. i was starting to wonder why. and after reading rah rah blog, i realised i miss the water breakers. i used to sit there alone to watch the waves and listen to the sounds of nature while clearing my mind. alone. until someone else came and gave me memories there. but somehow i dun believe its the memories thats preventing me from going there. not sure why. hmm i need to emo i guess... soon. haha.

hmm i was kinda upset on the way home from ecp because i was really really alone. all the north peeps went home already. and west had their gangs alone with the east and that leaves mr Yus all alone with malaikats though. heh so yep just took the 853 bus and had a small nap... the bus took 1 hr and it went by places i never been before lol. so yep had a company thru sms though by 2 ppl. thx for cheering me up u two! (u know who u are) and i really din notice my mood was down till u told me. aha.

And fyi. its been 2 whole years since i last swam in the sea. thats why i was so reluctant. hmm but since u guys wanted to chase me so i willingly went inside in order not to be thrown. haha.

hmm.its my lil bro bday today. happy bday to you halim. may u get better results insya allah. hmm haven get him any pressy. dun know what to buy lol. hmm ill think of something.(whats good for a pri 4 kid? lol)

Oh yep dun be shock if i ever wither away at the end of this week or early next week. wither as in missing and gone. that just shows my body cldnt take it no more haha. oh well.

Today soccer was fun lar! wee. hmm but was distracted watching some stuff and got scolded for conceding an easy goal aha. bloody hell! aha im a guy for goodness sake :P Oh well shd have stayed to continue but hmms din know u peeps wanna continue so yep went to lepaked at esplanade underpass while watching ssp training, took some piccys... of u guys then went home hehe. and oh no! i DUN WANT TO BE RELATED TO YOU NANI! lol :P

As the nite passes,
My body withers,
My head ponders,
My feelings fluctuated,

As memories fade,
I grew stronger,
i became determine,
I found a goal.

But as time passes,
a fear came over,
prediction took over,
and i still moved on.

..........................................
Inilah diriku,
jgnlah membenciku,
Bimbinglar aku,
Supaya aku menjadi orang yang sempurna. amin.

ARGH. lappy shutted down and my post is gone. thx. ciss mak bedah betuls...

K k takper imma rewrite...

You are like a glass
So Fragile
So Vulnerable
Yet so strong.

You were,
Cracked hard with first hit,
And while i was painting the crack over,
You were HIT again.
Broken you were yet still in shape,
However,
I believe that one more hit,
Will cause u to shatter.

This time after the 2nd hit,
I glued you and painted you over.
To hide ur cracks,
And yes you stood strong....

But,
A Reminder came,
And so you were shattered...
I was in TEARS,
helplessly watching you....

But,
I Will Fix you someday.
And This is MY promise to you.


So yep today kite ader match lawan team Zainal. So yep it ended with a 7-3 lost lol. but it was loads of fun ah. And din, kau not meant for right back ah seriously lol. kau bagus betul mark si no 17 and kejar dier and all cumer....tak leh catch up jer lol sampai die masukkan 3 gol. aha. too fast for u lar. aha so yep i entered the match after our team was down 4-0 aha. so i just played the remaining first half with a loan num 15 jersey big size (damn big that it looks as if i din wear shorts) full of paki's sweat. lol so yep 2nd half our team naik 4-3 sey ... wee! lol. and the num 17 stopped scoring anymore goals..... but dunno what happen ah, i think coz sumer penat then they scored another 3 lol.

Aiyoyoyo today i really intended to rest sey. ingatkan nak kasi si din main the whole match or at least the whole of 1st half coz i was too tired. but aiyoyo... kau ni din. aha... but i made one mistake ah... causing the 6th goal lol. i missed an easy interception lol. but oh well. lol

Haiya. monday bola, wed bola,fri bola... besok pagi pun bola...hmm tak tahu leh bangun tak aha. kalau tak bangun sorry eh korang. aha penat gilers ah. hmm lepas tu ade muis dialog session. aha hopefully tak tertido ah. lol. wee. thats all for my story... boring kan? ah tu lar sape suruh baca? jawab! jawab! aha.

Hmm awak u seem so different today. noticed it since morning. dunno what happen but haiz... wished i cld help but seems like ur not telling something.... entahlar...2 days straight it seems. i just wish u would go back to the old you. takper wat ever it is, ill stay here. and try to find out. cant leave u stranded alone in this cruel world. N-E-V-E-R. hmm i know its hard. i really do. but takper ill keep motivating u. though i am disappointed in some of ur actions but i understand why u did it. so its forgiven. somehow just missed that old smile. hmm...

Wee! Blog can update already... so happy mapie!

haha mcm budak kecik gitu eh yus? sape ajar? korang jugak aha.
So anyway what have i been doing this week? hmm... nothing ? wakakaka
So on monday, my sec sch peeps buat picnic @ sembawang park... so the exciting, ingat nak gi sekali my fren dah ask to play Street soccer at hougang earlier ah....hmm so okae ah... i decide to go plae street first then go picnic micnic. but then Allah s.w.t tak mengizinkan, coz by the time im in the train to go sembawang, faiz says that they are going home already.. aww man. takper lar this sunday picnic ngan budak mls plak!

wee!!!! so the happy but argh PESTA PANTUN SEBOK AH! ciss! makan mancis betul. hmm nampaknye kene teman 4 ekor kambeng amik their cert of participation lar ni haiyo. takpe takpe. then 3.30 leh join korang morangs.

Hmm lepas tu ader b.b.q lagik! yay. mcm soo looking the depan to this day ah. aha. then this friday ader match... ngan team zainal... hmm i think i bring boots but i wun plae ah. let the others have a chance to plae.... especially din, its his debut. so yep let him plae :).... maybe me main bola at sideline tendang mendang ajaring some of u gerl plae soccer amaciam? okae tak? aha. since korang nak start team sendirik mirik kan haha.

hmm so yep itu hari biler main street soccer, the court basah... so satu satu jatuh turn by turn macam telebubbies sey.. aha. cute giler... lagi lagi si "eagle" guy and Faan.... macam nangka dah smelly gitu. aha but the pace of the game was just nice ah enjoy gilers. aha

then today street lagi... aha this time since i brought boots to train but they wanted to plae at street, so i ended up playing with socks only ah. since takde kasut and i dun want to use my new slippers... aha now my socks koyak sey. aha but it was fun fun fun aha lagi lagi the last part hit the tiangs lol. Yes ah! next time play again okae? aha. this time i wear shoes bleh rem to the bats.

Wee dunno why but today cam happy gitus. besok outing yay. but dunno can bangun or not. hmm but never mind looking forward also yay.

I watch the world change
Slowly yet steadily
I watch myself change
a meant to be kinda change

is this what you people want from me?
maybe yes, maybe no.
does this makes me, me?
or just makes me another you?

Hmm let the questions be questions.
Im moving on.
insya allah. ill accept every mistakes of mine with open arms.
and i promise ill make it my plus instead of weakness

But for that to happen,
i need your help.
guide me please.
correct me please.

shd u see me astray,
pull me back
shd u see me going the right way
pat my back.

thx you.

testing test.

Hello All
Been sometime since kite update hehe.

Well hows lyfe? hmm lets see, its been fine lately...
Im changin slowly but yet surely.
Haven been caring as much as i used to.
What i have been doing lately is fi i ever sensed something wrong...
What ill do is to ask how are u and if ur okae... but if u insist ur fine, i shall back away.
This goes to most people really. except a few whom i wun leave stranded like that hehe.

Bah yet again i disappointed u huh? twice in what 3 days? hmm yet again u forgave me ?
wow. sometimes i really wonder... how can u be so patient? hmm despite my everlasting sarcasm and crappiness. hmm. others wish for me to stop and when i wanted to, you said please dun, just be urself. hmm maybe ur right.
Thank you.

And so the meeting went fine on sat. alhamdulillah... after the meeting stayed ahwhile at faizul house then went off to go to hazimah fav emo place lol. Nice place really but i prefer places with sea, wind and sunset heh. and i have 3 places in mind. 2 of em being near my place while one at town, at a place which i used to work at and also a place that do give me a lil memories but bah ive moved on. Aha all this 3 places are both mine and ahmad's fav. coz this places gave us some ease of mind and helps to destress. bah i sooo miss the sunset.

Maybe someday i shall bring some of you along to the place in town... insya allah someday. heh.

As time passes by...
Im appreciating it more and more..
The friendship that you gave.
The care and concern you had.
Insya allah someday...
I shall repay...

Though no words cld describe how sry i was....
I hope u know how regretful i was...
I shd have listened yet i didnt.
But because of that, i became stronger....
Strong enuf to face any incomings...
Even though i had yearned for it on saturday,
I stood strong because of something in my mind...
And for that i said no :)
For that i thank you.

Dear Yus,
Please stay strong aites.
You have a lot of things to do.
Please,please, please settle ur mind.
Please move forward...
I cant afford to lay back no more.
I have alot to do, a lot of goals to reach out for.
Though i still need support from people
Still i shall be fine... :)
Insya Allah.

Ps:Btw i soo agree with ur post. very. hmm. takpelar.
Take care and get well soon frens.

Aha.

Hmm i knew you would somehow figured the difference in me.
Why? hmm nvr mind, andai kau tahu kenape...ku tak tahu ape hendak ku buat. aha.
Alhamdulillah i passed my prac 8 today. thx to everybody that doa'ed for me aha. that includes my family, my bestie and you aha.

Haiyo kak SITI! u made me become an addict to this song lar. you %!$!@#! aha. i ve been listening to this song for like the past 1 1/2 hrs lol. Andai kau tahu- UNGU aiyo...

For what happened two days ago.

Andai Kau tahu kenaper ku tak beritahumu....
Takkan engkau merasa sedih..
Andai kau tahu daripada ku...
Takkan engkau menjadi begini....

Andai tiada engkau....
Ku mungkin masih berterusan...
Andai kau terlihat dahulu....
Tidak kan ku rasa kau menjadi kawanku

Oleh itu wahai sahabatku...
Maafkanlah aku kerna tidak memberitahumu...
Tahuilah kamu, bahawa ku betul-betul berhenti...
Alhamdulillah
Terima kasih dariku kepadamu

insya allah ill update more tml.

MY LYFE, MY RULES, MY WORLD.


Wee! aha hmm Exams are OVER! yay! hurray hurray. I can slack now.... since i dun think ill be working this hols...entah nak kerja but i dun think i can ah....hmm. alrite anyway so thursday was my last paper.... Started the paper at 9.10 ...finished at 9.30 haha.... then leave the class at 9.40 (30 mins into the start of paper then can leave) aha....then gi lepak at mls while waiting for the rest of the people to finish their papers!

Initially wanted to go find quotations but hmm adelah sebab2 seorang insan tu, die nak balik haha. takpe takpe its alrite :) so ended up following nani and raudha to bugis and meet heerah and su there. And erhm someone is late as usual aha. So after that go lib research on Pesta Pantun...Wee! aha lepas tu mkn pat Swensens! (aww too bad u werent there heh)

On Friday plak dorang nak lepak at raffles.... dunno why i just dun feel like it ah.... so i just stayed in mls with hilmi, ain, heerah and entah siaper lagik aha. Then went home...

Saturday! Bola! Guess what we lost! aha hmm lets see 5-2 ? or something like that wakaka.... I went in when the game was 3-0 losing. masuk terus right back... play play play then they score one more.... aha.... wah the field condition ah can cry say....keras giler with a lot of rocks.... lari sampai sakit kaki sey. dahlah takleh slide wakkaa... but takper. ditakdirkan tuk kalah aha. imagine ah 1 month tak main sumer. aha. then second half i move up to right wing.... boleh lari tu boleh tapi terlepas bola plak aha. misjudge ah. then lastly biler sumer striker kene sub off, jadi striker plak wakakaka. but after the match...hanya allah s.w.t sahaja yang tahu betapa penatnya badan ini aha.

I was like mcm setengah mati just to follow ain ,raudha and nani.... walk at the back of the grp to the coffeeshop sey....aha. wah for once i was like suffering just to keep up with the girls sey. adui adui. aha that is how tired i was. Sampai coffeeshop, terus beli 100 plus aha. at least ade energy aha.

Then terus pergi Pesta Pantun, sempat tengok the previous round compete.... aha kekek sey dorang nyer 2 kerat story telling. etc. Badan ku bau harum, As'salamualaikum.... then reply was Badan aku pun harum, Wa'alaikumsaLUM aha.... lame giler... that was from nuzul anyway aha.

Then SP nyer pun start... wow their intro nice. then their 2nd pantun was nice too.... but overall im proud of you FOUR girls ah :P aha even though u cant answer some, its okae.... its all part of the game k? but overall u did well. Aha then 3/4 thru the pesta pantun, bangun gi toilet then at the stairs tersungkur twice sey! consecutively plak tu.... sakit sey!!! aha... my foot now lebam sey.... ouch ouch aha..... hmm tapi takper lar aha...

AHA YOU ATE! wee! :P

to be updated again! bye bye!

RANTING MY HEART OUT ONCE AGAIN.

Hmm is that what everybody things?
Is that what everybody wants?

I seriously do not know.

If you people think i know everything.... You are SO WRONG.
If you think i need to know everything.... You are SO WRONG
If you think i want to know evertthing.... You are DEAD WRONG.

You peeps think i really bother to know and care about all this? no i dun my dears.
I dun want to either. but its in me. Its in me that im capable of reading people.
And also its in me that i tend to know what happen. And also somehow i just know.
What am i to do? ignore and dun bother? and be a hypocrite?
This sense in me is GIFT and its also a CURSE
For i tend to know things that i dun have to know
And also things that HURTS me if i knew.

If you guys had wanted it, i would gladly give it away if its a THING.
But it aint. and what am i to do that i already have it?
IF you people want me to backoff... I shall and i will.
The only reason i hadnt done this yet is because...
I cared for every single one of you and i love you guys
And im afraid. yes im BLOODY afraid that shd i back off, you peeps wun have anyone
fall back on.... but what am i to do....

If that is what you people want then i shall
Im not god that i know everything
because i dun, i just know a lot of stuff.
HOW I WISH YOU GUYS KNEW HOW PAINFUL IT IS
TO KNOW WHAT U DUN WANT TO KNOW.
HOW IT FEELS LIKE TO HIDE AND PUSH EVERTHING AWAY
AND LET NOTHING AFFECT MY EVERYDAY LYFE.

But its alrite. no one is at fault.
Words may hurt. but to me words are words.
But im disappointed. i surely am.

And yes my worst fear is and will always be....
The fact that shd you guys fall..and i knew why but i dun bother and u fall further.
Without anyone there to help you up.

Frens...
How i wish you guys understand my pain
How i wish you guys feel my fear
How i wish you guys know what im doing

I never wanted myself to be this way.
I never wanted myself to have this sense.
I wish you knew how i was back then
Who i used to be, Who i was back then

How painful it was everytime i reminisce my past.
How hurt i became everytime i tried to forget it
However i stayed strong despite all that just for you.
Just for each and every single one of you.

Hah, me and my lyfe....
I just tend to rant it out so much
But there are still soo much inside
I dun wish to wear no mask

Why you ask?
Because i dun wish to lie.
I dun wish for to put up an act.
I may hide my true feelings but still
I show my true self. no more a mask

A mask to me is just pure acting
Why shd i act when i can show ppl who i really am?
How can i break other ppl's mask if i myself wears one?
Contradicting wun it be?

Frens....
I just wish you would appreciate me for who i am
NOT who you want me to be.
For i can be that very guy but its just not me.
Its who YOU want me to be.

But for now i shall lay low.
I dun understand things that have been going around
By watching it already hurts me enough
I wun go around caring so much anymore
I shall back down for now, im sorry.

And as for YOU.
Thanks for listening to my crap.
Thanks for helping me push on
Thanks for giving me the assurance.
Thanks for everything.

And i wish you would smile on...


And for my old fren.
Its sad you CANT forget what has happen
But please do not forget you were what kinda caused it.
If u dun wish to i shall not force you.
But with it in mind i can assure you
The barrier shall forever exist as long as the incident is not forgotten.

Thanks for your reply towards what i said.
And for your info my fren,
The reason i said it recently was....
I dun have the heart to say it beforehand

Reason being...
I dun want to remind you of me.
I dun wish that you get all upset again
I left you alone hoping you can forget me.
I purposely gave you time even though i longed wanted to write that.

I wish you to be happy in ur current lyfe.
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This has been in my mind for quite some time.

Andai ku menghilang....
Sudikah engkau mencariku?
Andai ku jatuh...
Sudikah engkau mengangkatku?

Hmm oh well, u misunderstood me. But its okae. I shall not care abt it anymore. I wish u well.

I din meant it to be everything
For everthing meant nothing
For im no god to say that
However im just a normal human

I may not know everything
But i do know a lot of things
It comes from my conscience
And not just from gossips

Im sorry that u misunderstood my intentions
Misunderstood my doings for pushing you
But i meant well
All i wanted was to ask if you are okae

Why are u hiding?
Why must u run away?
Why must u pretend that nothing happens?
But its okae...Carry on doing whatever u feel is right

Who do u think i am?
Personality reader?
I may know u for so long
But attitude changes and so does personality

U used to be independant
U used to be so strong and rough with words
How was i to know that u turned the table?
How was i to know that ur the opposite?

I am not sure who you are anymore dear fren.
You used to be closed with me
You used to be someone i can click with easily
But now, you just seem just like another working partner

It hurts if u want to know.
Seeing you, her and other people the way u are now.
Seeing the changes and feelings inside you people.
Seeing the mask that most of u ppl wear to sch everyday.

I vow to break those mask someday
But i guess things are getting harder it seems.
I can only break the mask if the ppl are close to me
But once im gone the mask re-appears as if nothing happens

Im no god to please everyone.
Im not a bias idiot to side anyone either
Im trying my best to remain neutral to everyone
Oh how i wish you knew how hard it was.

What makes me happy was the happiness
The happiness in people's eyes
The Smiles you ppl gave everytime i tried to be lame
I dun mind sacrifising my stupidity just to make you ppl happy

Even though....
Only one single smile cld really make me happy
It doesnt matter for every single smile matters
At the very least.

I can only hope that you will stay strong.
Stay strong to face the barriers and problems
Given to you specially by HIM
And for now all i cld help by is
By Dedicating this poem specially for you

I hope by me backing away from now on
You'll get better and get over my words
My words aint meant to hurt
Its just meant to say
I know how you feel and i want you to know im here.

I dun want to be a liar.
I dun want to give false hope either
Im not a hypocrite to say false things just to make you happy
But i am an lamer
I can only make you smile with my lame jokes

However i'll promise you this dear fren.
Ill try my best to motivate you
To help you move along further
And for you to know not all hopes is lost.

However i'll promise you this too.
I shall not care abt whatever problems you have
Its up to you to tell or not.
But i WILL NEVER bother to ask again.

This is my promise to you
And this poem is dedicated to you
And to all others.
My heart finally speaks....

Take care everyone :)

Helo people... its been ahwhile since i last blog properly aha.

So what has been going in my life? Well.... i have been studying alrite with two of my study mates whom help me push myself. yep and i am pushing (not now though coz im kinda resting heh) but anyway thx to them. Alhamdulillah. grats to one for finishing already. and stay strong for the other one ... u can do it! yey! aha

ok so what else? hmm i went to the final Singapore vs thailand the other day and oh my ...the match is so dramatic sey... seriously no kidding aha. for the first time i ever see the whole team left the field in protest to a penalty... aha oh my not only that the crowd was crazy! leaving the v
vulgarity cheer aside, they were like so crazy sey. Chanting happily together , Being angry together... its like their moods changes suddenly, cam mood swing gitu aha. sekejap marah ref, sekejap cheer ref, sekejap lagi maki team thai aha.
Funny lar u singaporeans. Anyway the match ended with us winning and i really din regret going sey. even though the next day i had MATHS paper. aha. Yus GILER! aha. :P
Anyway yep lepas match terus zoom, ahmad send me home aha... secepat mungkin heh. then i studied all the way till morning with my study partner and i tried to wake kambing with 36 miss calls but no use sey. she sleep thruout aha. oh well. alhamdulillah the paper was alrite. din really had a blank mind but yep on saturday i was like dead tired sey due to not having proper slp for 3 days sampai kene marah ngan bapak and some other ppl. aha. so yep saturday balik, solat then terus tido like i promised. so today energetic! wee! yahoo! aha and today ader dua match! Sg vs Thai and Man Utd vs Aper entah luper ah... tottenham i think? aha. oh well

Nampaknya either tak belajar or study late aha. but YOU stay on aites. study hard *tee teet* just received an sms saying the team sg bus just left thai hotel with police escort and on the way to the stadium* aha lets continue. Study smart too! u can do it... jgn malas malas. GOGOGO!

So yep one last paper this thurs! then we are free.! yay. pesta pantun this sat! do come and watch and ppl train hard for it!!! gogogogo! we can try our best.... and yep i heard MIQ is coming to town...but no invitation yet aha. lets see who will be our successor! aha. we got -1 for that i wonder if they are gona beat us with -10? aha we shall see.


Anyway to my old fren:

Buang semua puisi
Antara kita berdua
Kau bunuh dia sesuatu
Yang kusebut itu cinta

I see you have been doing well in ur lyfe.
I just hope that u continue whatever ur doing and not be reminded of the past.
I dun know if u still do read my blog any longer or not but its alrite.
I just hope u dun hate me or whatsoever.
Its not that i purposely din contact u again or whatsoever but seeing that u would rather avoid me and live on, i decided that i shall not bother u or remind u of the past.
Just that i hope u dun hate me for i have already forgiven you. and i hope u forgave me too.
Please dun avoid mls or its people for they have not done any wrong.
but if u still want to, i wun force you.
I just want to thank you for giving me memories and also for giving me an experience...
I never wanted a past in this kind of things but i guess i just cant avoid it.
From all this im learning to be someone better... insya allah
And to u, i hope u have a better someone.. or at least treat him better from whatever u learn
Im happy that u did changed into a better person while being with me and i hope it continues.
And yep who are we to decide who we will be with if its not for HIS decisions?
So i hope if Ridhuan is meant for u, dun push him away. insya allah if its meant to be its meant to be.
Besides he is a nice person and is always there for you
And also i hope u stay happy with Sheila And Nuraini.
I have never forgotten and i will never do like i once told u.
Im sorry if there is a barrier between us everytime we met but at least i will always say hi coz no matter what ur still a fren to me.

For that i shall end with a puisi

In lyfe, There are ups and downs
Dun let the downs keep us down
And Dun let the ups Kept us above the ground
Lets get back to reality and come back to the ground

In lyfe there are memories...
Good ones and bad ones.....
Dun let the bad ones turn to hatred
And dun let the good ones turn us blind...

In lyfe there are mistakes...
Mistakes made by everyone
even you and me...
Let us learn from this mistakes...

In lyfe there are always the future...
Lets get the goals in our future
And if ever we met 10 yr down the road...
Lets not hate each other...

In lyfe, there are others....
Meaning i may not be the one for you
Which means others are ...

Or for other people...
You may think im not for you...
But maybe i am....

Who knows? we can only wish we do....
So lets not hate....
Lets forgive and forget...
Lets move on in our lyfes.

Whatever happens lets not stop believing in HIM
Lets not stop praying to HIM
For HE knows everything
And HE decides everthing
But dun forget
Its us who plans..........

Girl, lets forgive and forget. lets move on.

And for my brother in mls. If u think its the same ...its Not. its different, i nvr want it to be this way. and i was just waiting for the right time to come back to my old fren. just giving it time to be forgotten. for she cldnt forgive me that time. but i believe now she cld. insya allah.
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i cant wait for camp! wee! and i think most prob, photographes shall be lil rah rah, rooster, me and lil vampy! wee. and yes i do know that we will need more than 1 photographer. since rooster OR amir is our official video man. But before that lets settle the planning first shall we?

I have a LOT of responsibilities and im taking em back one by one :)....
lets end this post with a pantun

Makan longan, bermain pakau,
Tengok Apai bermain dgn kaki,
Tengok bola dgn terpekik-pukau
Jgnlah sampai termaki-maki

LETs hope SINGAPORE wins today k? GO LIONS (ROARS)
Im happy nowadays :) thx to ur smile.

-KAU ILHAMKU-

Beribu bintang dilangit
Kini menghilang
Meraba aku dalam gelap

Rembulan mengambang
Kini makin suram
Pudar ilhamku tanpa arah

Sedetik wajahmu muncul Dalam diam
Ada kerdipan ada sinar
Itukah bintang ataupun rembulan
Terima kasih kuucapkan

Chorus

Izinkan kumencuri bayangan wajahmu
Izinkan ku mencuri khayalan denganmu
Maafkanlah oh...
Andai lagu ini Mengganggu ruangan hidupmu
Kau senyumlah oh...
Sekadar memori Kita di arena ini
Kau ilhamku... (x2)
( ulang Chorus )